Death and Rebirth: All shades of love

Desire

Lest the world outside see my pain,

I hide it behind a smile...

Lest he notice the void in my soul,

I always close my eyes when he kisses me...

Lest he overhear me whimpering,

I offer all my tears to my pillow...

Lest others see how my soul has been ravaged,

I look for a temporary reprieve in my meds...

Lest I lose the few friends I still have,

I hug them even when it hurts all over,

Lest they notice I am tormented,

I smile and bless each day...

Being thankful for everything I've lived and enjoyed,

For having been loved and cared,

But inside I'm shattered and exhausted,

And all I want to is to rest still in the womb of Mother Earth,

Enveloped in its soothing silence,

And fade into a hollow cocoon,

Just a distant, blurred memory...

May my name be etched in a peaceful grave,

Quiet, at peace and finally free of pain.