Death and Rebirth: All shades of love

Pain

Ten times have I known pain -
Before accepting me fully,
When my grandparents died,
When fibromyalgia struck back,
When my first love passed away,
The first time we slept together and you said you loved me,
When I discovered my so-called best friend was a jerk
After I realized I had lost so much time caring for her sake,
When I even lost myself in her toxic, evil ways,
When I found out you cheated on me,
When I realized my world revolved around the wrong man.

Yet amazingly, I'm still here,
I want to believe I'll survive.

Yet amazingly, I'm still here,
I want to believe I'll be just fine.