XXII. Bad habits {S. 4}

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Cw: swear words, cursing, blood, gore, knife, eating problems, stalking, suicide, trouble eating, murder, bad habits n bad coping mechanisms

Season 4

Guilt was haunting you every single day

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Guilt was haunting you every single day. It would probably continue to haunt you for a long while. You knew that it wasn't entirely your fault. Your friend went insane and tried to kill you, it was self defence but that didn't make the guilt and anxiety go away. Witnessing murders, getting stalked and shot then stabbed then killing someone yourself, that didn't really help your mental health.

Very surprising. /sarcasm

There was no point in keeping your roommates room the way it was left. You just couldn't get yourself to clean everything up and look for a new room mate. The rent was payable with an extra cash check from your parents. It's not like you wanted to stay in the apartment, it reminded you of a bunch of traumatic experiences but you just didn't have any luck in finding a smaller home.

Your left wrist was still killing you and not fully listening to you, so you got a wrist strap-brace thingie that weight lifters use. It actually helped and eased the pain to the point of you forgetting to take it off before washing hands or going to sleep. Why go to the doctors when you can just fix your own problems right? You would have gone to the doctor but health insurance wasn't really covering anything so you figured to just let it be.

Ring ring

Ring ring

"L/N"

"Hey this is Gabby Sherman from college. You gave me your number."

"Yes right I remember."

"When is the next study session you guys are having at the library. If y'all are fine with me coming."

"Oh- yea there shouldn't be a problem." You said holding your phone at your ear with your shoulder in a uncomfortable position

"Great!"

"Wait a sec. Let me get my schedule." You said rummaging through the stuff on your desk

"You don't have it digital?" As a answer to that you just hummed not really answering the question

"Sooou- Wednesday at 9am were studying for- for how to read crime scenes and behaviour of criminals and behaviour of criminals on drugs. Do any of those fit you?"

"Yeah that should be fine. Alrighty mighty! Thank you."

"You're welcome."

Ending the call before she could ask any more questions or hang up before you felt very unsocial. Hanging up first was a bad habit and you were quite competitive about.

Talking about bad habits, you had a few next to hanging up first. Smoking, consuming too much coffein, forgetting to take care of yourself, self isolating when you weren't  'in the mood' to socialise, being blunt asf, dark humor in the most inappropriate moments for it, putting other peoples health over you, not really showing that you cared for someone when you actually did, (insert some of your bad habits), buying band shirts even though you had enough and blaming yourself.

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⏰ Last updated: Nov 27, 2024 ⏰

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