All I need is you

Chapter 31

 The last couple of nights away from the twins has been hell on me and Joshua. I can't even function without the knowledge of the twins being alright. My brother Jon hates me at the moment and I can't even get myself to face Josh even though I apologized to him.

"Jules is everything alright out there? Have you gotten dressed for the meet and greet with your brother?" I heard him yell from the shower. 

I didn't reply; instead I sat there looking straight into the depths of my twins' eyes hoping to bring them with us the next time around. I felt as if everything around me didn't exist like a person in a dark jail cell staring at the metal bars. I finally crumbled as my head smashed off the pillow and the seeping water I tried to hold back kept falling.

"Babe are you okay?" He questioned.

Once I looked up at him, I noticed he only had a towel around his waist and his hair was dripping wet. "I'll be alright babe not much to worry about," I wept while drying my eyes and grabbing some fresh clothes to where to the meet and greet.

"Nah your clearly not alright you've been like this since the show."

"I'm fine Josh. Now please move I've got to go."

With that I left him standing in the hotel room shocked and kind of hurt. I never raised the voice at the man I love nor have I ever dismissed him when he asks me if I am alright. I felt broken inside as I made my towards the meet and greet spot where my brothers were both awaiting patiently.

"Hey Princess you okay," Jon asked as I looked at him while putting on a fake smile for him.

"Yeah Julie you don't look good," Colby added.

"I'm going through a lot Colbs and I am just a little drained," I replied while smiling at all the fans who were waiting for Jon and I.

While at the meet and greet there was one fan in particular that caught my eye. She had a stroller and a diaper bag that looked exactly like the on I had for the twins. Once she came up I remembered her face which made my face light up like the North star in the sky. 

"Sua you bought a ticket for me to see the twins?" I asked as she turned the stroller around to reveal Edward and Elena.

"I had to. Josh knows when his girl is sad and he insisted I bring them to you," she replied as I picked them both up to hug them.

"How are my little babies. Momma missed you so much," I cooed while tickling Elena's belly. 

I hadn't noticed until Sua put her hand up to my face and stroked it with her wrinkled finger that I was crying.  Colby had now grabbed Elena and Jon had Edward as I crumbled into her arms with my eyes balling out water.

"Hey what's wrong Julianna," She asked as I wiped my eyes as I looked down at her. 

"I've been a bitch to Josh. I have  to do things to him that I don't want to because of our storyline. It hurts when you have to hurt the man you love so much," I reply feeling like the most horrible person in the world.

"Mamas you're not that evil. You had to do what you had to do for the show. I'm not mad nor hurt that's why I got my mom to bring the twins to help you feel better," he explained as we began walking back to the hotel.