ARE WE STILL FRIENDS? | TAA & ALEJANDRO BALDE

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I WRAP MY HANDS AROUND HIS NECK, deepening the kiss we were sharing. I was happy to finally be with the one only right choice for me.

I knew no one would compare to him, he was the love of my life and deep down be bit always knew it.

"I love you" I spoke in a whisper once we pulled away from the kiss, it was such a weird feeling to say this to someone romantically "I love you too" he puts his forehead against mine, locking eyes with me as he does so.

FLASH BACK

"I can't believe you're here mads, I don't want you to ever go away again." Trent smiles as we lay on his couch, we'd just been randomly talking about everything and nothing at the same time.

"me neither, but I have to" I frown, I needed to get back on with my life and do what was right for me.

"I wish everything could just stay the same, like before" he looked genuinely sad, it made me happy to know he actually felt sorry about everything and wanted to change it if he could.

"I know, me too" I faintly smile at him.

"i really like you madi and I just need to know how you feel about me, about everything" he speaks again, a hopeful look in his eyes.

"I love you, but it'll always be Alejandro. I've never loved anyone the way I love him, I've never felt about anyone the way I felt about him" I admit.

"I didn't realise what I had til I lost it, you're great Trent but no one has ever made me feel loved like Alejandro did. I know Alejandro can give me what I want and need" I explain

"he's the guy I've always dreamed about, he's the one. I know he loves me the same way I love him, and I know you will never love me the way I loved you" I frown at the statement.

It was true and we both knew it, but it was still sad to hear out loud. I really wish things could've gone differently for me and Trent, but I'm still glad with how everything turned out.

"you deserve him madi, you deserve him and so much more. I am truly sorry for everything I did to you, I just wanted to be able to love you" he pulls me into a hug, kissing my forehead for comfort.

"I know, I know. I truly hope you find yourself a good girl, I know there's someone out there who will love you no matter what." I smile.

I wish I could say I wasn't such a forgiving person, but I am. So even after everything I went through, the sadness and heart ache I felt, I feel bad for choosing Alejandro over trent.

Seeing how sad he is now made me sad, I just want to be able to fulfill everyone's needs, I wish I could've chosen trent but I simply can't.

I could never choose trent after meeting someone as amazing as ale, he fulfills all my wishes and beyond. I had only now realized I didn't just like him, i loved him.

I love Alejandro balde and I wasn't ashamed for it, there was no need for me to be ashamed for it.

I think that's what gave me the most comfort, if I would've even thought about choosing Trent I would've gotten shamed for it by everyone, but I won't get shamed for choosing Alejandro.

He was perfect, he treated me the way I needed to be treated and hadn't done me dirty, ever.

I know I've only known him for just over a month but for Trent a week was enough to break my trust, Alejandro hasn't done that yet and I don't believe he ever will.

so now I was stood here, bags packed, ticket booked and a flight that left in five hours.

I didn't wanna say goodbye to Liverpool or Trent yet, I needed more time here, but I felt myself being pulled towards ale. I needed to make clear to him that he was the one before I ever come back.