[Vent]
So it's somewhat common for peoples personality's to change around different people and groups, right?
(Especially for neurodivergent peeps)
But there's something about myself that I want to understand.
Let's say I'm reading about a character that's confident, sassy, has good style.
I start acting like that.
Not to weird right?
But then, but then... what happens when I watch a crime documentary?...
I can feel empathy for the victim. And even imagine what they felt like and thought...
But then, it gets worse.
I start to get into the villian, bad guy character...
Does that make me crazy? Insane? Dangerous!?
...
I don't know.
Why does this happen?
Why do I get so... into character?...
Sometimes it scares me...
I want to understand this.
I need, to understand this.
What is this!?
...
Who is the "real" me?
Am I actually dangerous?
Do I belong in a psych ward? To be forever locked away?
(Who do I even tell this too!? Strangers? Friends? Family? A therapist?...)
What if I take it to far and- end up behind bars?...
What am I...
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Am I a monster?
I've had such disturbing thoughts. For years.
Even as a child, they were so dark and mature...
Was it trauma? Or is this part of my genetic makeup?
To be a psycho?
Wtf...
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What if I'm the bad guy?
Even worse, what if I want, to be the bad guy?...
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Up and Down, Around and Around
Random[Trigger Warning ⚠️] This is a vent book. The ups and downs of life. Sometimes it gets really dark, other times it can be so happy and positive. The stress of life takes it toll. I hope this makes you feel comforted, knowing your not alone. Some day...
