Up and Down, Around and Around

College?

[late night rant, all over the place]

(I was supposed to make a positive chapter but I forgot)

This was meant to be about college but turned into a full out rant on society.

Good 👍 it's needed.

🍂

College

I always dreaded those words,

Born with a purpose,
That I can't follow!?

I only have one passion, one dream,
I don't care about dorms, clubs of majors,
I just want to live out my own dream!

You need to work!
You have to choose a major!
You'll enjoy it!

No.
I never will.

Why should I be born into this world and forced to work?
For a dying world?
A fallen society?

When I've already found the meaning to life,

Even if it scares me,
Even if I never truly live,
The fear of what happens after we die,
Scares me more,

The idea of high school or college makes me sick,
I don't want the drama,
I don't want the stress,
I won't do the work,

Why should I spend 4+ years in college?
Why should I be forced to work a job I hate?
Live a life I hate,
To live a lie,

You told me I could be whatever I want,
The sky's the limit,
So shoot for the stars,

Then you rip my dreams apart!?

I don't have a 5 year plan,
I don't have plans tomorrow,
Or today,
I'm just trying to live,

I don't make life long plans,
Because I won't be around that long.

Your so smart!
Look at those A's

But I'm falling apart,
Can't you help me?

Look at you...
Your so stupid and lazy!

School is stressing me out and there's a pandemic!
I can't focus in online school, but I get panic attacks in school,

Your a failure!
Just another dropout,
Your not even trying!

I tried for so long!
I was dying and you never saw or cared!
It's all about the grades,
Never the human,

But if I die,
You'll sudden care?

They say suicide is bad,
But never cared,
So your not allowed to be mad, or sad,
And don't you fucking cry!

None of your majors interest me!
Let me live my dream!
My own life!

I'll never work for you,
I refuse to be another empty vessel for you to control,

Why am I not allowed to just live?
I spent so much of just trying to survive,
My childhood got fucked up,
And now I'm supposed to just grow up!?

It's my life!!
Why am I not allowed to have my dream?

~I refused to rot inside at a desk all day,
Building some else's instead of mine~

You need to build a future for yourself!
Why?

This "society" has already fallen apart,
8 billion people is wayyyy to fucking many for this planet,

The planet's dying,
We can't just go live in another,
Mother Nature has taken care of us long enough,

Hurricanes, tornados, earthquakes, tsunamis, plaques, eta,

The earth has been trying to get of us long enough,
Except it.

Nothing we do matters,
We won't be remembered like ancient cities,

Our plastic will melt away,
Our buildings will fall,
Our phones with be destroyed,

Our society isn't built to last,
No one will be around,
There will be no memory of us,

Hate the new generations all you want,
But you made them!
It takes two to tango!

We've been given a fallen world,
With nothing left,

Taking away our own human rights,
Paying just to be a human,

No matter what you do,
It won't last,

Why be a fashion designer,
When people can't afford houses?

Why eat gold,
When people starve?

Why make a useless product,
When nature is polluted?

Humans will never be the best species,
We hate our own,
We kill our own,
We torture our own,
We #ape our own,

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So why the fuck should I care?
About society?
About humans?
About something as useless and minor as college?

Nothing fucking matters,
Besides living,
And loving,

Treat nature well,
Enjoy your life.

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