[Vent]
You know what I learned today?
No one cares until your in a really bad place or actually dead.
Being called "lazy"
Never depressed.
Never wanting to go anywhere or do anything.
But never being invited.
Never seeing friends or family.
But when you make plans, no one shows up.
Waiting all year for my birthday, same day every year.
Yet everyone already fucking has plans!?
Fuck you guys.
They said they cared.
They said they loved me.
They say they know me better than anyone.
Then where the fuck are you?
Then tell me how I'm feeling?
What am I going through?
Huh?
You have no fucking clue do you!?
I waited for you!
I suffered for you!
I was put in pain because of you!
Yet you never gave a fuck!
You never stopped it!
You never helped!
I guess the only time you'll ever care for me, is when I'm finally dead.
Don't bother to call.
Don't bother to message.
Don't bother to cry.
Trying to pry my heart apart.
I suffered all these years and for what!?
To work to death?
To be forced into having a family?
Maybe one day I'll finally find peace.
Maybe one day I can finally be happy.
Maybe one day-
It will be better.
Do you know how many fucking days, months and years I WAITED, for something. Anything.
My birthday, holidays, seeing friends/family, seeing a new movie, reading a new book.
Waiting to feel better.
So many fucking years!
And for what!?
I didn't get to live!
And never will in this society!
I'm over it. Fuck this world.
The planet has been out through to much.
Humans need to die out.
Permanently.
Then I can get the fuck out of this wretched place.
Finally find peace.
If it even exists...
(Just a glimpse into my messed up brain. Feel free to use this for medical/therapy practice *joke*)
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Up and Down, Around and Around
De Todo[Trigger Warning ⚠️] This is a vent book. The ups and downs of life. Sometimes it gets really dark, other times it can be so happy and positive. The stress of life takes it toll. I hope this makes you feel comforted, knowing your not alone. Some day...
