The Contract Of Love | jjk + kth

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“Taehyung, do you think you would ever find love?” Isabella asks him, taking a bite of her sandwich. Sitting on the cold bench in the middle of the park as it was three in the morning.

“I had at least four different people hitting on me at the club just 2 hours ago. I think I will do just fine.” Taehyung laughed as he took a bite from his sandwich too. Opening his water bottle in a hurry as he was dehydrated as fuck.

“That's not the same,is it? you have never been in love and neither have I. Sometimes I think…I probably won't ever know what it feels like.” Her face suddenly falls. Taehyung, who was mid-eating, quickly swallowed it and put his sandwich on the paper bag that was on the bench.

“Are you still drunk? Do you need to throw up? Why are you suddenly being like this? We are in our early twenties, we are still students. We have our whole life ahead of us to find love. You don't have to feel so disheartened.” Taehyung says to her. He puts his arm around her shoulder as suddenly the tears start falling out of her eyes.

“I-It's easy for you to say. You are so lovable, tae. It's so easy to l-love you. If you were a girl I think I would have p-probably gotten married to you.” She says between her sobs, Taehyung just gives her a hug. There's nothing much he can say to that. So he just embraces her tightly.

“mhm, if only. You would find someone better than me, I promise you that. Someone who is so in love with you that they would not stop until you guys are eighty with fifty grandchildren.” Taehyung says to her and it makes her laugh. Wiping her tears away, he puts her hair behind her hair.

“Thank you. When the day comes when you are in love, I hope I am the first one to know. Or I would be really mad at you.” Isabella says to him and Taehyung chuckles.

“Okay, I promise you, before anyone it would be you who gets a call. Now eat your sandwich quickly and then we should leave. We have a fucking morning class. Whose idea was it to go clubbing on a weekday?” Taehyung questions.

“that fucker ryo, now he is fucking that guy from art building and we are crying here about love. I will kill him tomorrow.” Isabella says to him.

“I will join you.” The two best friends chuckle about it before going back to eating and talking about most random things in this park till sunrise.

A year after that, in their final year of university, Isabella found Stella, her girlfriend and also now her fiancé. The girl who cried in his head about not finding love was probably the happiest out of their group. When Taehyung got to know about her engagement, he felt shot down. He was happy for her, so happy that he almost flew to London again just to congratulate her but his own life was at such a low moment, it struck him hard about how lonely he is.

He did find love too, he found love in a place where no one should, he found love in a person who was never his to begin with. Taehyung does sometimes think that he forced himself to love a man who was selfish because being left out was something he wasn't fond of. With his brother marrying too, his father being busy with work. His boyfriend never answers his calls or even met up with him. For the first time in his life he was completely alone and in a dark place where he wonders if this is how it always will be.

That was when he fully understood how Isabella felt sitting on that cold hard bench, crying about how she would never find love. He found love but it was so toxic that it didn't make any sense to him. Love isn't supposed to feel this bad,right? If not, then why does he feel so horrible? What is he doing so wrong that others aren't?

Everyone is getting married, getting into sweet relationships, falling in love. Even with all the people around, even with a boyfriend by his side, why does he still feel so alone?