The Contract Of Love | jjk + kth

T W E N T Y S I X

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"This won't work." Tarhyung says to his husband with a heavy heart. His hands on the steering wheel holding it tightly, for support he cannot receive any other way. The car parked in their apartment building parking lot. Both not being able to get out of the car without clearing this tension between them.

"Taehyung, are you really doing this right now?" Jeongguk asks him, completely exhausted at this point.

"I know it's not the right moment, with your grandma being sick and that whole shenanigan with your parents. It's the worst timing but I cannot pretend to do this anymore. It pains me to see you like this, I felt like I got hit too when your father did that to you. I was seeing blood, I wanted to kill your father at that moment. This might be my anger talking I know but in that moment I was ready to be a shield for you because I would rather him hurt me than you. I have fallen too deep, Jeongguk." Taehyung tells him and Jeongguk shakes his head.

"I would rather be striked ten more times than let him put his hands on you."

"Saying this type of stuff doesn't help your case, Jeongguk. It makes everything worse for me. I..I want a divorce." Taehyung states clearly that he has made up his mind. He sees how Jeongguk freezes up for a second as his entire demeanor falls. He was scratching his arm, something he does when he doesn't feel well and he was blinking a lot.

"Don't say that. Can't you just give me a little more time? Just till I sort my stuff out then I can give a solid answer to you about everything. Please Taehyung-" Jeongguk's cry was immediately cut off by Taehyung who wasn't willing to hear anything anymore. He ignored how Jeongguk was visibly shaken up by this.

"No. I cannot do that. We have been apart for long and I know you have your answer in your heart and you are suppressing it because you are too afraid to face it. It's okay, I know I'm not the one in your heart and it's completely fine to not like me as much as I like you. I didn't plan for this to happen so let me go. Tagging me along in this push and pull race is cruel, Jeongguk." Taehyung says it to him and Jeongguk's bites his lips as he feels tears welling up in his eyes.

There's a spot in his throat that's getting itchy, it's making his entire throat so dry. It's suffocating to be sitting in this car right now with all the feelings he has inside of him right now. "I cannot live without you." Jeongguk manages to speak without bursting out in tears.

"You can. You are just used to me. You can go back to your old routine, the one that didn't had me."

"What if I don't want to? What if this is what I want for the rest of my life to be like?" Jeongguk says in a daring tone that surprises Taehyung.

"You are high on emotions, you are going off on adrenaline. Go to sleep, Jeongguk. Tomorrow you would wake up with a clear mind and you would know what your heart wants. I will contact my lawyer to nullify the contract, please don't fight that and the divorce papers will come along with it. Do what you want with this information but please take my feelings in consideration too before you throw a tantrum. I didn't ask for any of this either, so please comply. Now please leave my car. I will come up in a while. " Taehyung looks down in his lap and doesn't make eye contact with Jeongguk whose eyes he can feel are on him.

Jeongguk wants to say something, he wants to hold him, comfort him because he is on edge and he knows that. But Jeongguk himself is a mess right now, how can he help him? As much as he wants to fight against all this, he once again, gives up. With a heart as heavy as a rock, Jeongguk grabs the door handle and pushes open the door. Getting out of the car to leave Taehyung alone. He wants to ask when he will come up, or if he will even come. But he doesn't. He stops himself because that's not what Taehyung wants right now.