Red pov:
I walked to the room I had to meet my councilor in. I gently knocked.
Councilor: Come in.
So I opened the door. And saw a woman with pink ish purple hair. She looked about mals age.
Councilor: Come sit Red, right on the couch here, please.
I slowly walked over and sat on the couch with a proper posture gently, rubbing my fingers together in nervousness. Nibbling on my inner cheek in silence, avoiding all eye contact with the woman right in front of me.
Councilor: Hello Red, my name is Audrey, and I'll be your councilor.
Audrey: Is this your first session with a professional? You seem awfully stiff.
I nodded, still avoiding her eyes.
Audrey: Well, there's no need to be nervous, I'm here to help. I was told you might have a piece of paper from Evie, am I right?
Red: Oh right, here.
I handed her the paper. She unfolds it and reads the list. I can hear her quietly reading them softly.
Audrey: It looks like you have a lot of things we have to work on. Do you know which one you would like to start about first?
I thought deeply as to which ones I was most comfortable sharing with first. I knew which one I was most desperate to fix, but... idk if I'm ready yet. After another moment of silence, I finally got the courage to speak.
Red: I would like to know what I feel. Ever since we came back, I've been an emotional mess...
I sigh as I smirk.
Red: I keep having these feelings. I don't know what they even are. Half the time I can't even tell if it's supposed to be a good or bad one. I'm so, so used to masking to protect myself that now that I'm actually allowed to feel, it's been very overwhelming.
Audrey: And how many of these new emotions do you think you've been experiencing since you cane back?
I had to think for a moment since most of them felt quite similar to each other and was hard to distinguish.
Red: um well... maybe 5? I think one of them is anxiety. One is fear, sadness, and 2 others. I have no idea what they are. I can't even describe it.
How is she supposed to fix me if I can't even describe what I'm feeling. This is already feeling hopeless.
Audrey: ok, so mostly negative from what I can tell. All of which are perfectly normal.
Red: Why does my emotion feel so strong yet so hollow inside of me?
I finally looked into her eyes. Looking with deep concern.
Audrey: it's hollow because it looks like you're avoiding it. Your body wants you to feel it so badly, but I think you're fighting with your subconscious. You don't like having feelings, don't you?
Red: I've rarely ever been allowed to have any. Even when alone, only a few were able to spark.
Audrey: Which ones?
Red: just the basic ones like sadness, happiness, frustration. But most were only temporary. After a while, I'd go right back to feeling numb or empty.
Audrey: Well, you know a few, which is good. And know how to express them. But I'm gonna take a guess and say it's a new emotion? One you've only recently started feeling?
I nodded.
Audrey: Great, we have a lead now.
Red: a lead?
YOU ARE READING
Glassheart but realistic
Romancea more realistic approach to their relationship, it's not rushed and ill try to keep it as pg13 possible cuz they are 16 in the story.