Glassheart but realistic

Part 19 - Rumors

Red pov:

Chloe wants to know about my childhood? I didn't think she was curious about that. I mean, I guess I don't mind telling her about it.

Red: Well, um, where do I start.... I remember  always trying to talk to my mom or reach for her when I was like 4-6 years old. She kinda gave me attention back then, but when I was 7, she turned cold. She started to ignore me more and just sent me to Maddox, my tutor. I kept trying to talk to my mom, but after trying to do many times, I gave up. I just went straight to Maddox. You already know about the women I tried to replace her with. But when I was 10, that'd when I really started to rebel. Back then, it was only small things like moving furniture or misplacing things. I just kinda stopped seeing her as my mom. Honestly, since the age of 10, I didn't really do much at all. I was just isolated and bored. the only person to talk to was Maddox. I don't know what I would've done if I ever had him. I told him a few times that I was a lost cause, but he always tried to convince me otherwise. It never really worked, tho. As you know, my mom used to behead people who would break the law. Small or big, if she wanted to, she would. And she would make me attend them all since I was 12. She said it was to desensitize me as part of my training to he future queen.  I tried to save them, but there's only a few I managed to actually save or convince my mom of another punishment. After watching hundreds of people's heads being cut off almost daily. I kinda felt numb to them. I don't understand how she could ever enjoy seeing that. She tried t9 teach me love ain't it. But I knew I always wanted it. I tried to stay on her good side most days. It was rare for her to actually care about my input. But again, that's her past self. I won't ever get to see that version of her again. I'm still very conflicted about her. I still see her as her old self. I still have all of these heavy memories that she doesn't even know about. I don't know what to do.

Chloe places her hand on mine.

Chloe: Why don't you go talk to Audrey about it. I'm sure she can help you cope and maybe find a solution to your conflict.

Red: ok, I'll try that.

Chloe and I decided to try and lighten up the mood after hy goofing off a little. So we decided to walk around for a bit. We went into town and went in all the cute litrle boutiques. An hour has passed and it was soon lunchtime, so we went to get food in the cafeteria, but when we got there, we were getting strange looks, and everyone was whispering to each other.

Red: Why is everyone being weird?

Chloe: I don't know... doesn't matter. Let's just ignore them and eat like normal.

After getting food, we were heading to our table. But everyone we passed quickly looked away from us while still whispering things to their friends. This can't be good. What could they be talking about? But we finally reached out table. Me and Chloe sat down as we saw our friends' faces filled with concern.

Chloe: What is going on? Why is everyone whispering things to each other? It's creeping my out.

They all looked between each other for a moment, hesitating if they should tell us.

Red: omg tell us! I know you know something, please just tell us.

I lightly slammed my palm on the way.

Mona: Well.... there's a rumor going around about you.

Red: me?

Leah nodded.

Leah: they're saying you're a bad person. They're saying you're lying and made up these bad stories about your mom. Apparently, a lot of people here kinda know her and know her as good.

Jack: Your mom kinda a big deal here. Red.

Red: Well, how am I supposed to know that I barely know her now self.