Glassheart but realistic

Part 11 - trying something new

Red pov:

I head back to our dorm after my session with Audrey. I felt a little more liberating. I had my doubts, but that girl knows just the right questions to ask, kinda like Chloe. I actually want to get better now, not just for Chloe but for me. I did say I wanted to experience a normal life... so if feeling is normal, I also want to try. Now, I just need to try to do something I have never done before. Great. This might take a few tries. I opened the door, and Chloe was sitting on her bed writing something in a small book.

Red: I'm back!

Chloe: Oh hey.

She is sitting focused on writing still before slowly putting her book down under her pillow.

Chloe: How was it? It looks like it lasted a while.

Red: it went actually well. I had my doubts, but she proved me wrong so easily. I actually like that girl.

Chloe: So, who was it? What's her name?

Red: Audrey, she had cool, pinkish purple hair and awesome makeup, too.

Chloe: You know she's dating my brother, right?

Red: Wait, are you serious?

Chloe: Yes, I don't know too much about her. She kinda scares me. Usually, when she came over, I'd avoid her.

Red: Well, she's actually quite nice.... I also kinda asked if you could join me in our next session.

Chloe looked at me, shocked.

Chloe: ya joking, right?

I shook my head side to side with a sorry face.

Red: You don't have to come if you don't want to... I'd never force you to go with me.

Chloe: I'm just messing with ya, I told you you might like her. I'd love to be by your side to support you.

Chloe: So what was today about?

Red: Well, we talked about feelings and emotions and why mine feel strong yet hollow.

Chloe: strong and hollow? How does that work?

Red: It means my heart tries to feel, but then my brain fights it, so I end up feeling that. Sooo.... she gave me a challenge for the week. To try to feel only. Not even think about it, process it, just feel. I'm not exactly good at that.

Chloe: Maybe I can help.

Red: How?

Chloe: I want you to try something....it might be weird at first, but I think you might like it.

Red: What is it?

Chloe: I want you to do what you want... to me.

I looked at her, confused. Got a little flustered, too. Why did that sound...hot?

Red: Um, what do you mean by that exactly?

Chloe: it means I want you to hold my hand if you want to hold my hand, hug me when you want to hug me, touch me however you want to touch me.... do what you want with me.

I bit my lip as my thoughts started to race of the things I wonder what she'd let me do. How can this girl I've known for a week trust me so much? What if I decide to do something out of pocket? She would definitely hate me after that.

Red: But what about boundaries? You said they were so important and stuff.

Chloe: boundaries are good, and I do have them. But for this experiment, I won't tell you what they are.