🖤Daily Life- You're having a panic attack in front of your boyfriend🖤
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,,I'll always be by your side, baby.."
While Yuta is gaming, I'm lying on his bed, cuddling with his teddy bear while scrolling through TikTok.
I look up, seeing that Yuta is playing Minecraft and I smile, looking back at my screen. Suddenly I get an email from my professor, probably announcing our grades and I sit up, feeling nervous.
Yuta turns around and looks at me with one eyebrow raised:,,Is everything okay?" ,,The grades are out..", I say and swallow, opening the email. ,,Really?? I bet you have A's everywhere since my baby is such a smart girl, isn't she?", Yuta stops the game and sits down next to me, giving me a kiss on my head.
I giggle and look up at him:,,You're so cute.." ,,Just saying the truth...", he smiles and points at my phone. Now that I feel more confident about my grades, I open the file, searching for my grades.
Once I find them, my heart sinks and I need a while to process what is standing there. F, D, F, F, F and C? I failed? Me??? I FAILED?!?! HOW?? I swallow the lump in my throat and my vision starts to get blurry. How... How could I fail this badly.. What... I'm... I'm such a failure...
I don't even hear Yuta's voice because I'm grasping for air as if the air is suddenly too thin to fill my lungs and my heart is thrumming so hard and fast, feeling as if it might explode. I rub my sweaty hands against my lap and I feel someone stroking my back but it doesn't do anything against the uncontrollable shaking of my body.
I'm such a failure. Such a failure. Such a failure. Such a failure. How could I fail this much? How? Now I'll have to do this semester again. I'm usually a good student. I was always the smart girl. Now I'm the stupid one. The dumb one. A fucking failure. A failure. A failure.
Suddenly I feel a sharp, stabbing pain in my chest and I continue grasping for air, my vision becoming even more blurry as tears start to flow down my cheeks and an icy chill washes over me, making me shake even harder.
Everything around me starts to feel unreal, the pain and the hyperventilating making me feel dizzy. Suddenly someone pulls me closer to them and holds me tightly, rocking me to the left and right. I grab the fabric of their shirt as if my life depended on them.
I sob heavily and nuzzle my face against the person's shoulder. After a while the pain goes away but I'm still shaking. ,,Psst, I'm here...", Yuta whispers into my ear and I sob. I feel him stroking my hair and I lean into his touch, seeking his comfort and his warmth.
,,I know what is going on in your head, baby. But let me tell you something... You're not a failure. You tried your best and I'm proud of you. You'll do better next time. I love you so much..", Yuta kisses my head and pulls me even closer.
I let his words sink in, a warm feeling spreading through my heart and I nuzzle my face against his chest. Not a failure. He's proud of me.. I tried my best. I'll do better next time... After what feels like eternity, I calm down completely and sigh.
,,Better?", Yuta places a kiss on my forehead, making me feel even more loved. ,,Yes... Thank you so much, honey..", I pull away, feeling tired from the panic attack and I yawn. Yuta chuckles and brushes a loose strand of my hair behind my ears:,,I know how you feel about your grades, but don't worry, I'll be here. I'll always be here in your darkest times."
I smile sadly:,,Thanks but... What now? I don't want to repeat this semester. You know how much I struggled... I don't want to go through this again..." ,,Baby... I'll be there. I'll help you with the learning, okay? We'll get through this together", Yuta smiles reassuringly.
This man is not only a green flag but a whole green forest. I love him so much... I giggle making Yuta look at me surprised. ,,What's so funny?", he smiles amused. ,,Nothing... It's just.... You're so damn cute. How do I deserve you? I always get into trouble and you're my hero. I love you so much...", I plant a kiss on Yuta's cheek.
He smiles shyly and pouts:,,You're way cuter and you've been with me through my hardest times as well. It wouldn't be okay if I left you alone when you need me the most." I feel heat creeping up my cheeks and I smile uncontrollably:,,Jeez. You always know how to make me feel better."
,,It's so cute how little I have to do to make you smile but you know what? That wasn't enough, baby... Come, I need to show you something", Yuta stands up from his bed, walking over to his computer and starting Minecraft again.
I smile and stand up, being curious. ,,I was playing on your account and I made something for you...", he zooms a little bit out and I see a big castle, making my jaw drop. ,,Wha.. How? That's.. Wow...", I chuckle.
,,That's not all..", he moves the figure, making it walk into the castle and when I see cats, I gasp, moving closer. ,,Yuta.. This is... You're amazing. You know how much I love cats, right?", I smile brightly. He smiles back and nods:,,Wait... I've got something else..." When he shows me the big library in that castle, my eyes widen:,,How did you even make it look so good and majestic? That's... Honey, I'm at loss for words. I love it.."
,,Do you want to play with me? Would that brighten your evening even more?", Yuta smiles warmly and sits down on the gaming chair. I nod and sit down on his lap. He laughs softly and wraps one of his arms around my stomach, pulling me closer. ,,Thank you so much..", I say to Yuta before we start to play Minecraft together. ...
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