Cross of heart

Sixteen.

Jen walked Rick back in the Cell block and everyone watched them walk in together.

"Rick.." Said Carol standing up. Carl came running from a cell hugging his dad. "Carl.." Rick hugged back and closed his eyes enjoying the moment he and his son had. Beth walked into the room holding the baby, who was wrapped in the blanket. Rick sat down next to Carl as he watched Beth get closer. She held the baby out and Rick picked up Judith from her arms.

"A baby girl....i have a baby girl." He whimpered and rocked her in his arms. He looked down into her hazel eyes and fell in love.

"We named her Judith. After Grandma."

Rick smiled," well that suits well...she has her grandmother's eyes."

Jen smiled at Rick holding onto the baby and tried walking over to check on Michonne but Carol stopped her.

"Jen." Said Carol holding onto her arm lightly.

"Yea Carol, What is it?"

"Before the Baby was born Lori would have us gather things for the baby. We have blankets and clothes for her but, not enough diapers or formula. The last run for formula was when Glenn and Maggie left..."

Jen nodded, "Yep we all know how that turned out, I know there's only one box of formula, that won't be enough for the baby. Tomorrow I'll go out on a supply run for the baby, It was my old group's fault that they didn't get enough for the baby, I'll take responsibility and go out.

Rick popped up between the two with the baby in his hands still and shook his head," Nope I am not going to let you go, I'll do it."

"No Rick you are not going, you need to stay her with the baby and take care of yourself and Carl. I'll go, you stay here and don't stress your self out too much."

Rick shook his head and looked at Judith who was sleeping,"Fine but just this once, im not letting you out there alone again. Im not losing you again."
"Im not losing anymore family blood"
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It was the middle of the night and Jen couldn't sleep...she keep tossing and turning. All she could think about was the letter. She sat up and stared at the darkness, she had to fall a sleep but she was afraid of having another bad dream....Like the one from last night.

"Aunt Jen." Jen looked at the cell door and saw Carl in his pajamas.

"Carl, what are you doing,you're supposed to be sleeping."

Carl walked closer to Jen and she moved aside to let him sit next to her.

"I can't sleep.." Carl started to Sniffle and Jen held him.

"Honey, I know this is difficult."

"I miss my mom so much...I thought I could be okay with it but I can't. Look at what she left me in my letter."

Carl showed Jen the picture, it was Lori holding onto Carl with a birthday hat on. There was a birthday cake in front of him with the number 8 on it. She remembered that day, her and Rick we're helping their mom bake that cake for Carl....Confetti Cake was his favorite as a kid.

"Your mom loves you Carl...she wants the best for you."

"I won't see her any more Jen. I won't wake up and help her make food for everyone, she's gone." Carl started to cry and Jen held him tightly.

"Cry it out honey, These next weeks are going to be hard but everything will get better honey... You are not alone. You have your dad, a new baby sister...and you have me. I won't let go of you again Carl. I promised your mom that I will keep you safe..."

"Can I sleep with you tonight Jen?"

Jen smiled and gave Carl a kiss on the cheek, "Og course you can sweetie, Im here for anything." Jen laid down and Carl layed next to her.