𝑴𝑬𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑰𝑬𝑺 ✍

CHAPTER -45

"Cai en na...I know I can't fix it but at least give me a chance na!!" seeing him crying like that I couldn't help but hugged him tightly immediately and also started crying and said while rubbing his back gently but he immediately pushed me and shouted

"LEAVE....LEAVE ME ALONE...YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING....JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME!!"

"MAIII...I CAN'T STAY AWAY FROM YOU PHUWIN...I STAYED ENOUGH AWAY FROM YOU....I CAN'T ANYMORE!!!" heard him I immediately hold his arm tightly and said while shouting

"Why Don't you ready to hear me for once huh....!!!!" I again said while shaking him while holding his arm and he was just trying to remove my hand from him without even looking at me

"I DON'T WANT TO HAER ANYTHING...LEAVE!!" he said while shouting that I hold him even tighter...I was feeling a little dizzy as I drank alcohol also I was feeling so restless that I couldn't stand properly

"Leave It's....hur...ting...I sai..d lea...!!"

"You have to hear me...I LOVE YOU DAMN...WHY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND!!"

"LEAVE......DUNK!!!" he shouted loudly that I released him...but as I released his hand he immediately slapped on my face and I didn't know why I immediately got mad that I again grabbed his hand tightly pulled closed to me and pressed my lips on him and he started to push on my chest

I couldn't process myself for what I was doing...I was feeling like I was going crazy for him day by day...I didn't want to do that to him but as I pressed my lips I couldn't step back but started kissing him aggressively...his lips was so soft and warm and that was making me more crazy that I couldn't let him go...I kept sucking his lips while holding his waist with one hand and with another hand I was holding his two hands to his back tightly as he was hitting my shoulder continuously

he was so tiny that I could hold his whole body with just one hand...and he perfectly fit in my arm...I was pulling him closer while kissing that he was struggling to release himself...but I didn't know why I didn't feel that he hated me...I couldn't feel his hate for me...I kept kissing him continuously for a long time...I couldn't stop though I could feel that he couldn't take it still I wasn't feeling like letting him go I was wanting more that I forced him to open his mouth and somehow lack of breath he couldn't help but wide his mouth slightly and taking the chance I immediately put my tongue into him

as soon as I put my tongue I immediately started sucking his whole mouth...and while sucking his mouth without even my realization I started rubbing his whole body...he was still trying to release himself....but suddenly he moaned a little "Umm..mmm!!"...and I didn't know why but as I heard his moaning I felt a current inside my body that I gabbed him ever closer and started kissing him even harshly

While kissing him I felt that he stopped struggling and letting me kiss him that suddenly I also became weak that unknowingly I released his hand and gently hold his neck but immediately I felt a strong pushed on my chest that made me stepped a back and as I looked up Phuwin again slapped me instantly and as I was about to say suddenly he grabbed my collar and started shouting while crying

"LOVE ME HUH.....SUDDENLY YOU LOVE ME....WHERE WERE YOUR LOVE IN THESE YEAR'S HUHHHH.!!"

"FOR YOUR FAMILY WE ABOUT TO DIED IN STARVING....DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA IF FOURTHS FATHER WOULDN'T HELP US WHAT WE WOULD DO THEN HUHHH...CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE..?....NO YOU CAN'T....YOU CAN'T DUNK NATACHAI!!!"

"AND NOW YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT YOU LOVE ME HUHHHHH....YOU SAY IF YOU WERE ME WOULD YOU FORGIVE THE PERSON WHO DESTROYED YOUR EVERYTHING....SAY IT....WHY ARE YOU QUIET NOW HUHHH!!!"

Phuwin kept shouting and I just kept hearing him while looking at him...I really didn't know what to say

"Phuwin....PHUWIN DIAOOO!!" I suddenly realized that I messed up everything but before I could say anything he started to walk again so I also started walking behind him while shouting

"DIAOO....what should I do that you forgive me???!"

"STOP COMING BEHIND ME...LEAVE ME ALONE FOR GOD SHAKE!!" he shouted while still walking

"NO....WAIT....WHY ARE YOU RUNNING LIKE THIS...I KNOW YOU ALSO LOVE ME....WAIT....!!!" heard me he suddenly stopped and looked behind

"I hate you...JUST HATE YOU....UNDERSTAND....I'll NEVER LOVE YOU!!!" he again shouted and heard him my heart ached that I again shouted back

"NO YOU DON'T....YOU LOVE ME I KNOW...I CAN FEEL THAT PHUWIN...!!" I was shouting loudly

"Feel.....what feel huhh.....I HATE YOU DUNK....LEAVE ME AND LET ME LIVE....FOR YOU I SUFFERED ALMOST HALF OF MY LIFE AII HYYAAA....STAY AWAY FROM ME.....I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU UNDERSTAND.....I HATE YOU!" he again shouted while crying and immediately leave

"Phuwin....YUTH...LISTEN TO ME...!"

"PHUWINNNN...........I LOVE YOU...!!!"

"PHUWIN....STOP!!"

"PHU....WIN....please don't go...please forgive me...!!" I shouted but suddenly my vision got blurred that I couldn't see him anymore so I sat down on my knee while crying loudly and in no time immediately rain started....I kept crying loudly under rain while sitting like that about an hour and suddenly I heard Ponds and Joongs voice from behind

"Heyyy Dunk....what are you doing there huhh???"

"aii Dang alaii huh...are you and why are you sitting here like this??"

"Hey are you crying...aii Dunk...are you okay....Pelaya huh??? "

"Where is Phuwin huh...where did he go aaii Dunk??"

"Okay get up let's go inside...we'll talk there!!" after saying that they made me get up and took me inside the bar again and after coming inside I sat on the sofa and started drinking again...and I couldn't help but feel a strong pain inside my chest....it was hurting so much that I couldn't breathe...tears weren't stop from rolling down...his words were buzzing in my ears repeatedly

"Aii Dunk stop drinking this much...tell us what happened??" Joong said while taking the glass of wine from my hand but I just unheard him and took the bottle and started drinking from it directly

"Aii Dunk you went behind Phuwin right then...where did he go??" Pond asked with a confused face and Joong also nodded with him...I couldn't say anything but just kept drinking

"Alaii aii Dunk stop already you'll faint in no time!!" Pond took the bottle from my hand while saying but I immediately snatched it from him....the pain I was feeling inside I wanted to decreased it...or I would die with it...I really couldn't take it anymore that I started cursing myself while crying

"It's all my fault...everything happened because of me!!"

"Aii cai en kon aii Dunk...it wasn't your fault na...Phuwin will understand one day just give him some time!!" Joong said while patting my shoulder

"Maiii he won't forgive me...he is not even ready to hear me for once...!!!"

"Be patient na aii Dunk...he'll definitely hear you...!!" Joong again said and Pond nodded as yes...heard them I stopped drinking leaned against the sofa and closed my eyes

I didn't know what I had to do to archive Phuwin's forgiveness but no matter what it was I would do anything...I wouldn't let him go anywhere this time