Private Life is a happy life

25- I wanna be Yours

"Where did you get that video? I don't remember that!" How had they picked up on me and George but not me and Charles, unless someone was there and had it in for George.

"I took the video, I wanted to ask you about it and didn't want you to lie about it." He lowered his shoulders. "George, I wouldn't lie! You don't need to take videos of me to get the truth." I felt violated. Anyone could see that and what if they share it. "You always tell the truth do you? Then why did you leave out the bit, where you slept with Lando?" I've never imagined George angry, I didn't think he was capable. "I didn't want to hurt you! How do you know I slept with him anyway?" "I fucking heard you Lucy! I came looking for you last night, I came to your door and I fucking heard you! And him, calling you princess." His voice was raised.

"I didn't mean for it to happen, it just did, we'd both sobered up, why does it matter to you who I sleep with? You slept with your ex the night before you slept with me!" I was raising my voice, the door had opened but I didn't care to look. "Yeah, I slept with my ex, but my best mate slept with the woman I love and she fucking lied about it!" He was pointing his finger. "I didn't fucking lie, I just didn't tell you because I didn't want to fucking hurt you!" "Hurt me? You've fucking crushed me Lucy, if you'd have been honest, I wouldn't care as much, but you lied about it, that's what's hurting me. You've done it so you might aswell own up, Lando can do a lot worse than you. But you, is there anyone in this house that you won't fuck? You've made out with Max and Charles, you've fucked me and Lando, you just need Carlos and you'll have your own baseball team!" This was getting out of hand.

I looked to the door,tears forming in my eyes, all 4 of them were stood there, Lando and the Ferraris were just looking at eachother, Max looked pissed, but I couldn't tell who at. George followed my gaze. Then he looked back at me. "Lu, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it." He tried reaching for me, but I stepped back. "Lu...please." "Leave me alone George. I know this last week, I've been quick in my decisions, but can you blame me? I just got out of a relationship and found myself, with 5 very caring guys. It might not have occurred to you, but I have no male role models in my life. My dad beat me and my mum, he was a drunk, he left us for someone half his age. My mum turned to drugs and alcohol after he left, with a string of boyfriends that she allowed to do what they wanted to me. I apologise for not being born, with a silver spoon up my arse. But that's my life, this is what I do. I ruin every good thing, all because I'm scared of being hurt. That's how I ended up with someone like Dylan."

They were all just staring at my revelations. No one daring to speak. Max came in and hugged me, George just stood there, pale as a sheet, taking in everything I said. I cried into Max's chest, 24 years of pent up emotions and memories all spiralling out. Lando came in and guided George out. The only noise left, was my sniffles and Max shushing me and stroking my hair.

"I'm so sorry you went through all that Lu." He was so sweet. "I'm sorry you had to hear it like that." My crying was slowing. "Me too, what got him so annoyed?" He actually seemed to care, which surprises me about Max. I told him everything, I know I can trust him.

"So a lot has happened then, but he basically thinks he's got a hold over you because he loves you?" "Yeah, pretty much." I shrugged. "And you really remember nothing of that night, other than the messages and Lando?" He asked. "No, I don't remember anything, but I barely drank." His body tightened, as he still held me. "Max, are you okay?" I looked up at him, he looked down but for the first time ever, I couldn't tell what he was thinking.

"Me and you spoke last night, I was very open about things...I told you last night, that...I love you and I've been keeping my distance, to try making the feelings go away. But, then I see you all over the other guys and it gets me so mad." He sat on the bed, I was stood in front of him. "Max..I had no idea, I'm sorry...but why do they make you mad?" I put my arms around his neck, to steady me, his hands on my back. "Because," he was getting irritated. "Because I do love you, and I know it's wrong, I barely know you. I've tried to stay distant, because of Dylan, but then I saw you with Charles, which is why I chose to tell you. Now George, I really want to punch him, for how he's hurting you and the fact he slept with you and Lando did. I really care about you, I want you to be mine, when you talk to another guy or they talk to you, I want to hurt them for not treating you right and when you're not talking to me, it hurts..." he sighed.

"But...I know I'll never win going up against Lando." His hands fell, to the back of my legs. I leaned close and gave him a hug, he held on so tight, like he was afraid I'd disappear. My head was spinning, this couldn't be real life. Lando appeared at the door, "Moo...I've made you egg on toast." I couldn't form words. "Lu, you're really pale." I couldn't tell who it was, but only Lando calls me Moo, so it had to be Max. His hand moved to the side of my waist, holding me up. Everything went black, the last thing I felt was Max trying to hold me up, and Lando's hands on my head, catching me.