Just A Kid

10. A little hope

Juliette POV

After my talk with April I had gone straight up to my room. I didn't want to see of hear my brother I was so mad at him and I wasn't even sure I wanted to stay here woth him for the rest of this week.

Laying down on the bed I pull one of the pillows to me and his familiar comforting scent fills my nose. As I breath it in the tears start to flow once again.

I missed him so much already, I never knew missing some one or loving some one could hurt this much. All I wanted was him to come back and fight for me, fight for us.

"Jules can I come in? Can we talk?" Phil calls softly through the door

"Go away Philip" I snap "leave me alone"

"Please Jules I just want to talk to you" he pleads

"Well I have nothing to say to you" I reply

"You have to come out of here sometime, you can stay in there forever" he says and I can tell he's getting frustrated "you are acting like a child do you know that"

"And you acted like a grade a asshole......did you know that?" I retort

"Jules I'm just trying to protect you" he sighs "he's not the same person anymore, he hit his last girlfriend and that is that last thing I want to happen to you. He's changed Jules he's not you're cookie anymore"

"Yes he is!" I shout "what happened was an accident he explained it all to me. He would never do that to me, he would never hurt me"

"But he did Jules" he says "your hurting right now because of him"

At his words I stand up from the bed and march over to the door. I unlock it and fling it open almost certain there is steam coming out of my ears as I face him.

My arm swings almost involuntarily and my palm connects with his cheek.

"How dare you! How dare you say that" I shout "he didn't hurt me you did! You ruined everything, you made him leave. I was happy......truly happy and you took that away from me"

"He chose to leave I didn't make him" he says "what are you going to tell me next that you love him?" He asks and I just look at him "Oh my god, Jules you know he doesn't love you right? The only thing that man wants is sex, he doesn't do relationships or love, why can't you see I'm protecting you"

"It would seem you don't know him like I do" I say "your wrong, one day you will see that. Now if your done I'd like you to fuck off and leave me alone" I say slamming the door in his face.

In that moment I knew I could no longer stay here. I couldn't be near my brother not without killing him for what he did.

I grab my bag and open it so I can start packing and I notice something that wasn't there before. A folded piece of paper.

I unfold it slowly and find a hand written note.

Nugget,

I am so so sorry, I hope one day you can forgive me and that you will be able to understand why I did what I did.

I need you to know that everything I said to you was true, you are my always and that will never change.

I promise one day things will be different just be patient and never let go of what we have.

Your cookie

xx

I just stare at the paper in my hand, he wasn't giving up after all. How did he manage to get this in here without Phil knowing and what was he planning.

As I stare at it I notice there is something on the other side. Turning it over I try to make sense of the printed words and then suddenly I realise he'd written the note on the back of his schedule, and his schedule is telling me exactly where he is going to and where I can find him.

Does this mean he wants me to follow him?

Shoving the paper in my pocket I begin frantically throwing my stuff into my bags making sure I have everything.

When I'm done I drag them downstairs and place my keys for the house on the kitchen counter top.

"Hey where are you going?" Phil asks

"Away from you" I say "I can't stand to look at you right now"

"Please Jules I don't want us to fall out over this" he pleads

"You should have thought about that before you broke my heart" I say turning away "goodbye Phil"

"At least tell me where you are going?" He asks

"I'm doing what I need to do to" I say without looking at him "I'm going home"

"I'm sorry Jules, really I am" he says as I walk out of the door

Closing it behind me I walk a little way away from the house to wait for my cab. At the very least I had bought myself sometime. He wouldn't be worried when he gets back to an empty house because he will think I've gone back to work.

What I was really doing was following my heart, following straight to Damian. I could only hope that I was right about him writing on the back of the schedule that this is what he wanted me to do and that I wasn't about to be hurt all over again.