Just A Kid

3. Confused

Julietta POV

Arriving at the beach house I couldn't wait to seclude myself in my room. The drive here had been awkward. Damian wouldn't even look at me let alone talk to me and it was driving me crazy.

I desperately wanted to know what had happened with him, to him in the years we hadn't seen each other but somehow I knew I wouldn't be able to get him to tell me.

A few times during the drive I had caught Phil looking between me and Damian with a confused expression. He knew something was up I just had to hope he never asked.

"Alright" Phil says as we walk through the door of the beach house "We all know which room you want Jules and I assume you'll want the room next to her like old times right?" He asks looking at Damian

"Uh yeah sure" he says "just like old times"

"I'm going to put my stuff in my room, get changed and then head out to the beach" I say "you guys can do whatever you want"

I don't wait for them to answer I just head for the stairs and the sanctuary of my room. God knows how I was going to get through this vacation.

Damian POV

"OK what did I miss?" Phil asks with a confused expression "you two always used to be close"

"Beats me, maybe she just needs to get used to me being around again. It's been a while" I shrug "I'm sure she'll be fine"

"I hope so" he says "do you remember how you two to used to push your beds up to the wall between your rooms so you could talk to each other through the wall at night?" He chuckles

"Yeah of course I do" I smile "those were good times"

"I always wondered what you two talked about" he says grabbing his bags

Immediately my mind goes back to those days. We talked about anything and everything, our dreams, what we wanted to be, where we wanted to go. We even made plans to do some things together but that never happened.

I miss those days, Jules always made me feel good about myself, she's the only one that could. I'd give anything to be like that again with her but things were different now, I'd crossed a line and then back tracked and I was fairly sure I'd hurt her.

Heading up to my room I notice her door is closed. I drop my bags and walk straight over to the bed pulling it over to the wall. I sit down on the bed and rest my head agaisnt the wall.

"Nugget?" I say softly "Nugget I know you're in there.......please Nugget.......I'm sorry I never meant to hurt you or lead you on"

The next thing I hear is her door open and close as she leaves her room and then heads downstairs.

Not willing to let this go I decided to wait a moment and then follow her.

Julietta POV

Walking out on to the back porch I rest my hands on the railing as I look out at the beach as the waves lap gently on the sand.

I didn't want to talk to him, I didn't want to hear him tell me one more time I was a mistake. All I wanted was to see the smile I loved so much, the one that always reached his eyes. The one that was no longer there.

I wanted my cookie, the cookie I remember.

"Nugget" a voice says behind me and I go to move but he stands behind me resting his hands on my shoulders "please don't walk away, please talk to me"

"There is nothing to say D" I sigh "you made it clear I was a mistake"

"You're not a mistake Nugget, you could never be" he sighs "I never should have done what I did, I shouldn't have led you on like that. Especially knowing you feel something for me. It's not that I don't want you it's just.............whatever you think of me, whatever you see in me you can do much better. I'm not the person you remember, he's long gone and I don't know if I can get him back"

"Maybe I could help" I say turning to face him and he smiles at me warmly and there is a hint of that smile I'd been looking for "I know my cookie is still there somewhere, maybe he needs me to bring him out"

Silently he rests his head against mine and I take his face in my hands as I close my eyes wanting him to stay close to me for as long as possible.

"Your the only one who made me feel good about myself" he says "I've missed you Nugget, I've missed how good you made me feel, but I refuse to allow myself the chance to hurt you. I couldn't live with myself if I did that. And don't forget you're Phil's little sister, I hate to say it but.......bro code"

"Look me in the eye and tell me you don't want to kiss me right now" I say looking deep in his eyes "and if you can't then don't fight it.......please cookie"

Damian looks at me for a moment before his hands come up to cup my face. Gently he runs his thumb over my bottom lip and slowly begins to move his face closer to mine. I close my eyes waiting for his lips to find mine only he jumps away from me at the sound of a door opening.

"There you are" Phil says "I wondered where you'd got to, you two figuring things out, getting reacquainted?" He asks

"Yeah something like that" I say and I feel Damian's fingers lightly play with mine

"I was thinking we could run to the store get some stuff to throw on the grill and some drinks and have a cook out and catch up" he says "what do you guys think?"

"Sounds good to me what do you think nugget?" He asks smiling at me

"Yeah sounds good to me too" I smile "it'll be great to hear what you've been up to cookie"

"Aww nugget and cookie back together again" Phil teases and Damian playfully swats him

"Jackass" I say under my breath and Phil gives me a look letting me know he heard and I laugh.

As Damian and Phil head off to the store I'm more than certain that Damian wants the same thing I do but something is making him hold back and I was determined to find out what.