Love beyond the game(MusialaxWirtz)

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Florian's point of view

When I arrived in Barcelona some weeks ago everything had gone smoothly and they had sorted it all out for me. So when I arrived at training it didn't feel weird to play with a bunch of pros I felt included and we got along quite quickly. Some didn't like me but that was normal, I mean there is no perfect match for everyone. Honestly it's also really nice playing with Lamine Yamal since he's able to fully portray his full potential and it really makes it more fun playing with another young amazing footballer.

After training today I went home, the past week had been pretty stressful due to all the training and partying. When I arrived here I pretty much felt like shit and they noticed. Luckily I quickly found myself a group of friends that helped me. I had told them that I had just recently moved out from a long relationship but didn't say the name because it would cause more damage than help. They all were very understanding and wanted to help me move on and have been pushing me to go to blind dates,parties and even almost signed me up for a dating show.

It's not that they people they ship me with have anything wrong with them their just not Jamal and as much as I try to make them into him they won't ever be him. I miss him. I know it's my fault that we broke up. It's just the way he's been acting had pissed me off and either way it would benefit our relationship more if we had a small break. He needs to think that I moved on and forget about him so that when we see each other again I want him to be jealous. I know it's stupid and probably something a child would do but I felt petty. I felt petty because of what he did.

When I arrived at my penthouse I unlocked the door and let myself fall into my bed. He wrote me again.

Did I want to read it? Yes
Am I going to read it?No

I need him to think that I moved on even if it's hurting both of us. I am doing it for the plot. Everything I do in my life  is basically for the plot. That's how your supposed to life.

I quickly drifted to sleep and woke up hours later due to hunger cramps in my stomach. I made my way downstairs and searched for a restaurant near me. Luckily I didn't need any bodyguards or anything like that because I wasn't really famous here. Sometimes there were people who recognized me but that was rarely they rather recognized Yamal. I had no problem with this I'd rather even say that I liked it because when I wanted for something to appear in the internet I could also always hire some fake paparazzi I mean everything's possible if you simply have the right amount of cash and I, I have the right amount of cash.

I remembered when I first started playing for Leverkusen there was this guy and the had multiple charges for sexual harassment from many different people but one day he left and the next day all the charges were dropped. It was like he had never done anything wrong, he seemed like the perfect citizen. That time I learned an important thing about life, it is that the richer the people are, the more they allow them self ,and the less regulations they have.  Money holds power and people always deny it but it's the truth and I experienced it that day with Jamal. The day my opinion changed drastically. I had tried to justify it for quite some time but it didn't seem to work. It was shocking me at that time and it had completely changed my view on things. I know that are still young and make mistakes but sometimes they are too drastic to simply ignore,forget or swipe them under the table.

I know that if I ever were to leak this to the press or public it would definitely destroy him,his career or reputation and I won't because I promised and I keep promises it's just still on replay in my mind. It came back to me, the second we broke up I had a reminder of it. I wanted to go back to him, I still remember standing in front of Thomas's house but then getting a flashback of what had happened that day and leaving. I can't be with such a bad person. I may be a bad person myself for kind of cheating on him, but what he did was 100% worse. It ruined people's lives and he did many bad deeds. This was just the overflow of it all.