Their little rascal

Ventisei: Ellie

(Listen to: somewhere only we know by Keane) please😢

~Allora dimmi quando mi farai entrare.
~So tell me when, you're gonna let me in.

♧~E.L.L.I.E~♧

I think I overreacted a bit. And now I feel bad. Why did I have to always be so stupid? Now Marco  feels bad and it's not even his fault. What was I thinking? That beautiful men like them would choose me and remain mine only? That was all nonsense. I have to stop acting lìke I deserved it anyway.

I just hate that I lied to myself by allowing my heart to fall them. Yes, I'm probably in love with them. I know it's silly and dumb because I didn't deserve them.

Tears rolled down my cheeks. I should have not scared them like that. Why was I such a mess? If my own parents couldn't love me then why would they love me? Why would they choose me above everything else? What's wrong with me??

Why can't I just be how they want me to be? Why was like like this?

Romeo and Elio had hugged me to sleep all night last night whiles I broke down in their arms. They kept trying to reassure me that everything would be okay and that they were sorry for hurting me. Me? I didn't deserve it.

At first I was crying because I thought Marco wanted me and that he was mine. Mine. But than my tears reminded me that I was never theirs and they weren't mine.

Marco's heart clearly wouldn't be mine, and I'm pretty sure it's the same thing with Elio and Romeo. Stupid Ellie. You did this to yourself. Stop overreacting and grow.

I heard my door being pushed open and shut my eyes, acting as though I was still sleeping. I don't know why I did that, but I didn't want to talk to anyone yet. It was the first time I hated the morning. The sun didn't encourage me to start my day with a smile. It only reminded me that I was on earth for nothing.

I didn't even have family. I had no friends. I was so alone.

It was quiet for a while but I felt my bed dip on my left. Then someone tucked my hair behind my ear so lovingly. I shivered, enjoying their touch. "Good morning, principessa." Elio, he was the one on my bed. "Come on, I know you're awake, baby."

My eyes flatters open slowly and immediately caught his. He frowned at whatever he saw in my eyes. A solemn look on his face as he sighs, trying his best to smile for me. "How are you, baby? Slept well?"

My eyes took him in. Trying to grasp everything about his features. He was a very handsome man. His blonde hair, curly and framing his forehead. He was cleaned face, not lime Marco who had a bit of hair growing on tip of his lips. The need to reach out and caress his lips nearly pushed me to actually do just that I didn't.

He waited. At first I was lost at what he was waiting for and I realized that I hadn't said anything back to him. His face frowned and eyes narrowed alarmingly. Waiting for me to day something but I couldn't. I tried but the energy in me was drained.

"Baby, are you feeling okay?" He asked, those beautiful gorgeous green eyes held mine tightly, trying to grasp any reaction from me but there was none. He swallows, his breathing slightly heavy as he got up the bed. "May I?" He asked, but I didn't want to.