"If you could have three wishes, what would they be?"
That's hard for me, because I feel like even the worst things that happened in my life, I have turned into something good. Objectively speaking, I wish I could've grown up without trauma, somehow have people around me notice my autism and be compassionate towards me because of it. I wish I could've kept my hyper-empathy instead of it being beaten out of me, all that's left is my apathy now. At the same time, I think I'm too attached to my reality now to really want that. Now I can educate people on NPD, autism, & anti-psychiatry and all the overlaps there. Now I can feel important.
I don't know if I would wish for anything for myself. The only thing I'd wish for myself would be to have the motivation to eat up a 200—300 page book in a day like when I was younger (even while I was in school that day), so I can read theory books quicker without needing to worry too much about starting with lighter texts before going onto longer ones. This year (and near the end of last year), I promised myself to get back into reading novels or other wordy books instead of just comics or manga. I read 10 books last year, including manga volumes, so my minimum goal was to read at least more than that this year (preferably with wordy books, but manga/comics still count) and the maximum goal was to read one thing a month (preferably wordy) OR like. Enough wordy books a year to count for 12 months. I think I'm doing good so far, because I read a lot of theory this year when I found the YouTube channel S4A's audio books, but y'know. I still wish I had the abilities of my younger self.
Oh, wait. I also want my mom to break up with her boyfriend, Ian. I can't stand listening to him talk about how he is so oppressed for his job as a cop and seeing him treat his son, Julian, the same way I was treated for my autism and ADHD traits growing up.
I guess I can wish for something that isn't for myself with the last one. I wish that Hezbollah crushes the IDF right now and our protests finally get them defunded, then Israel just completely collapses after that, so the Palestinians can have Palestine again.
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