You Belong With Me

21

Tuesday, April 27, 2021

As I laid in bed facing my ceiling I wanted nothing more than to sink into my mattress and disappear. Feeling breathless I turn onto my side to face the wall on my right closing my eyes before opening them as fast as I could. I couldn't even blink without seeing Liam in my head. My eyes needed to say open or I'd be back in that room with no place to run to. I grip my blanket as tight as I can before pulling the covers over my head blocking me from the outside world. Why didn't I kick him in the balls or something, I could have gotten away if I tried. Before my brain can take me back to that moment for the 100th time tonight my phone buzzed on my bedside table. Letting out a big sigh I pull myself up from my bed to see what my phone was bugging me about. Typing in my password I go to my messages app before seeing 15 unread messages from Ariana.

Ariana.Brooks • 4:53 PM
Heyyy How was School?

Ariana.Brooks • 6:02 PM
Did you have cheer practice today?
I thought you said it was your last day?

Ariana.Brooks • 7:15 Pm
Okayyy stop ignoring me.

Ariana.Brooks • 7:34 PM
MARGOOOOOOO

Ariana.Brooks • 8:15 PM
IM REALLLYYYYYY BORED HERE.

Ariana.Brooks • 9:45 PM
Are you okay??

Ariana.Brooks • 10:34 PM
I really hope nothing happened.

Ariana.Brooks • 11:34 PM
Please text me Margo.

Ariana.Brooks • 12:00 AM
I have updates on my dating
life for you!!!!

Ariana.Brooks • 1:03 AM
Did I do something?

Ariana.Brooks • 2:45 AM
Please text me.

Ariana.Brooks • 3:57 AM
Okay I'm really worried about
you.

Ariana.Brooks • 4:03 AM
Good Night Margo, I really
hope your okay.

Ariana.Brooks • 6:45 AM
GOODDD MORNING MARGO!!

Ariana.Brooks • 6:46 AM
Please text me.

I rub my eyes feeling the light of my phone screen burn into them before fully sitting up on my bed to send her a text.

Margo.Rodrigo • 6:51 AM
GOOODDDD MORNING!

Margo.Rodrigo • 6:52 AM
My phone was on silent all night!

Margo.Rodrigo • 6:54 AM
I just noticed right now I'm sooo
SORRYYYY!!!!

I put my phone back on my bedside table before I finally got it in myself to get out of bed. My feet made the cold floor creek as I stood up. I heard every message Ariana sent me last night, my phone rang every hour, the thought of turning over and answering my phone felt like a whole 9 to 5 job that I wasn't ready to handle. Taking a deep breath I pick up a clean towel from the hallway drawer before making a beeline to the restroom where I quickly locked the door. Staring at myself in the mirror made my stomach twist. My hair in a low messy bun bruises laid all over my neck and as my finger went up the neck line of my shirt pulling it down a little it reveal more unwanted hickeys tears ran down my face. Turning on my heels I quickly got in the shower, not caring that my clothes were still on as I turned on the water. Ice cold water hit my body as I stood directly under the shower head. My clothes soaking up all the water as I grabbed my hot pink loofah submerging it in soap before scrubbing my body as hard as I can. My skin burned as I took the pink bath sponged and scrubbed over the same spots over and over again not being able to remove his touch from my skin, the cold water slowly hiding the burning pain only made me scrub harder.
I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I fucking hate you.
Shaking my head I swallowed the urge to scream as I fall to my knees crying in my soaking wet clothes in the middle of the shower at 7 in the morning.