MY AVERAGE LIFE

Part 44

Shivani Pov: 

"I just want to become yours, like you are mine," is the only thing roaming in my mind. I can understand his insecurities, and I am glad he shared them with me. I can feel how broke he is and how much he is carving for love and care, and I want to give it to him. I don't even know if we have a future, but I will give my 100% to him. If he can put all his insecurities and beliefs behind him for him, I can also do it for him.

 "You should be careful of what you wish Sharath; you may regret it later," I asked, teasing him. "I won't if it is you." This guy i thought "Sometimes it's hard to believe that I am your first." "Why?" he asked, caressing my cheek. "See, this is why? You said it's your first time and don't want to make any mistakes, but you are being the perfect boyfriend here." "Boyfriend?" he said, smiling brightly at me. "Am I your boyfriend? Are we in a relationship now?" "You want us to be in a relationship?" He shook his head, and my heart stopped for a second.

 " why?" I asked, controlling my hurt in the voice. "Iet's just get married; we can date and be in a relationship after marriage." I was shocked. Sometimes i can't understanding him because the way sharath just say u are mine whithout knowing about like and love or like now dating after marriage, only he can think like that. I think I should get used to these shocks because apparently Sharath is a master at giving shocks to other people not only professionally but personally also.

 "It doesn't work like that, and Why are you in such a hurry to marry Sharath?" "I am not in a hurry to marry; I am hurrying to get married to you; there is a difference, Shivani."Damn butterflies. "Ahem, okay, why are you in such a hurry to marry me?" He signed and hugged me and again started to speak in my neck, "Because in the talking stage or dating there is a chance that you can break up with me. But if we get married, then according to my tradition, you don't even have a chance to divorce me. So, you will be stuck with me," he said.

 I tried to be in control because it tickled with every breath he took near my neck, but the last sentence he said, placing his lips on my neck, "Sharath." I whispered, not trusting my voice to say it loudly, and he smirked on my neck, bastard he knew the effect he has on me and doing it wantedly. "Yes, Shivani," he said in the same position, and  the way he said my name sent me goosebumps. I took a deep breath before saying, "Get up." He ignored my words and started placing small kisses on my neck. 

"Hmm, Sharath," I said, holding his biceps. "What? "You can kiss my cheek, but I can't kiss your neck?" he asked and continued placing kisses. I was enjoying it too much to resist him. He is sensually kissing the left side of my neck. While his right hand traveled to my waist and creased my waist and fuck butterflies, I felt a whole zoo in my stomach. Suddenly he gripped my waist, making me gasp "Sharath," but again he ignored me and continued kissing and gripping my waist from time to time.

 No matter how many times he did it, I still couldn't get used to the feeling. "You are so sensitive, Shivani, that I don't want to stop teasing u," he said, gripping my waist, but more hardly this time. I immediately placed my hand on his and said, " you should stop then." I said before I could stop my words. I mentally slapped myself. See, this is the problem. I never let someone be this close, not even my ex, and when am I finally comfortable with letting a man do it, I just have to ruin it by saying something stupid.Why am i like this?

What is the use of reading all romantic stuff when you can't be romantic? I only know how to ruin a movement. He chucked and said, "That's the problem, Shivani; I am not able to stop," and once again tension filled the air before I could respond anything. My phone rang, and I reached it quickly, unable to take more tension, and it's Jyothi who is calling. Seeing my expression, he got up from me, and I said straight before I answered the call.

 "Hello." " hi" "How are you?" " why did you call?" "Always straight to the point." I would have laughed or joked on her if it was like the past, but I just responded with "hmm." She was silent for a second before saying, "Can we meet?" " when?" "Like in an hour in Good vibes only cafe" I looked at Sharath, who was looking at me with concern. I smiled holding his hand, "Okay," "and yea, Swathi will also be there." "Hmm," I said, and I cut the call.