MY AVERAGE LIFE

Part 34

Shivani pov:

I was holding Sharath while he was crying, and I found myself crying too. I could sense that he was holding back his emotions, and I didn't want to stop him. I wanted him to let it all out so he would feel better. I was just rubbing his back as he cried. Eventually, he stopped crying we were still in that position and I didn't know how to break the hug without making things awkward all I could think about is his hug.

 I was lost in my thoughts when Sharath said, "I am fine, Shivani. Even though I was never liked by my parents, I had my grandparents and had no trouble growing up. I just want you to know how they were, so you will not take their word. I don't know how I ended up crying. I was just being emo-"

I cut him off, saying, "You are not being emotional, Sharath. You have every right to feel every emotion, whether it's happiness or crying. Don't stop either of them from entering your life. You may feel bottled up, but you will feel free after letting out your emotions," I said, backing away from the hug. I looked at his face, and there was no trace of tears. 

If his eyes were not swollen, I would have thought I hallucinated him crying. As for me, I knew I was a mess with tears all over my face. I wiped my tears and saw that he was just staring at me. Oh no, all I can remember is how close he was a moment ago. I looked down, unable to meet his eyes, I looked down and saw that both of our ice creams had fallen.

"Mr. Sharath, you better buy me another ice cream right now," I said, avoiding the awkwardness. He looked at the ice cream and then back at me and said, "You almost finished your ice cream, but you want another one?" "Yes, any problem?" I asked. 

He shook his head, bought another ice cream and said, "Just say you want another ice cream, Ms. Shivani. No need to make up excuses," he said, stressing on my name. "Do you have a problem with it, Mr. Sharath?" I asked, stressing on his name. He looked at me for a few seconds before smiling. He really looks quite handsome when he smiles and they when he is not.

He dropped me off at my apartment. "Thank you, and be careful while driving back," I said. "You want me to text or call you, madam, to let you know I reached safely?" he asked, smirking. Why is he calling me madam? I internally rolled my eyes at him and replied, "I will know when I reach the office tomorrow, so don't stress yourself too much, SIR," I said, flipping my hair and went back to my apartment. 

I know this is not how a boss and employee should behave, but I think we are more than that, I thought to myself, I didn't even realize when we crossed the boundary and became so comfortable with each other. Like this, the weekdays continued, with him teasing me and me replying back without any hesitation.

 

Today, as I was getting ready to go out, I received a reminder. That's when I realized this is my last day as his secretary, and from tomorrow, I will have to go back to where I started. When I first joined, I wanted the days to pass quickly, but now they did, I didn't want to go back. 

Maybe I... No, Shivani, what are you thinking? You are here to work, not to expect anything from anyone. Didn't I learn my lesson from past relationships and friendships? Then how can I expect anything from anyone? And yes, after the fight, my friends didn't call me, Jyothi didn't even respond to my call when I called a week ago, and I never tried contacting Swathi. Maybe I shouldn't call my friends anymore. Yes, Shivani, no expectations from anyone, I said to myself while wiping my tears.