The Blackened Bible

In my Head

I'm not trying to just say all the right things.
But everything that comes out of me is a catastrophe.
I could screw up telling you how I feel
I'm just trying to sort out what is real.
And all these delusions in my head
Its hard to sort out whats left of me
if anything
It doesn't change a thing I said
Even while my mind atrophies
You'll be part of me
And living with my regrets
Please help me patiently
It's hard for me
To navigate the thoughts in my head

I can't remember what it feels like to be me All I know is your hand is what I'm reaching for
Because you bring me clarity
Help me forget what I was before

Because the only thing I remember is the pain
I'm not asking you to fix me
I am just trying to rebuild myself
Trying not to make excuses or lie to myself
I just need some help to think me through
I know you'll help me see it through

Your smile unclouds the room
I can't focus; but I can focus on you
You seem like such a beautiful, delicate bloom
In reality I'm not as strong as you
My failures are written in my skin
Show me what It means to breathe again

With all these delusions in my head
(Don't what to grasp to)
It's hard to tell what's left of me
if anything...
(Is there anything?)
It doesnt change a thing I said
(Wouldn't take any of it back at all)
Even while my mind atrophies
You'll be with me
(If just in my head...)
I'm trying to live with my regrets
Please help me patiently
(I'm struggling)
It's hard for me
(All these thoughts in my head)
To navigate the thoughts in my head
All these thoughts inside my head...