The Blackened Bible

Don't

She breathes through the thoughts of a memory;

Where she can be here as much as I need

I know that I can't have her

And that she's what matters

But I can't help think that this affection she may see

Hold the pillow to my chest

And imagine her at rest

Lying next to me putting my heavy heart at rest

But she has no want for me

And I feel like she's the only thing that will make me free

There are only tears to sooth me tonight

But soon that will no longer suffice

Don't you realize?

Everything reminds me of you

I can't get away

From it no matter what I do

And if I try to run away

From the way I feel

Then it will come back to me

But only so very real

I'm slamming my head

Against the wall

Everything I do

It doesn't matter at all

You're like the one that got away

I'm the one who falls

I can't just forget about it like that

The memories there are permanent

Like fucking concrete

Don't you try to push this on me

Because I am the one who bleeds

Don't you try to play the victim

You're not the one who can't forget

Don't tell me that you didn't feel anything

I know that you did

Don't tell me that it's alright

You're not the one that has to live with this broken heart inside

Don't tell me it wasn't a big deal

Because every second I thought of you

But please don't tell me that you're happy

Because I know how you feel