Cruel Passions Of The Other Woman

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•Keshay Oliah•
"Honey"

My hands hold my own hair back as I throw up into the toilet. I've been sick since six o'clock this morning and now it's eleven. The day barely has started and I already feel drained, tired, and miserable. After dry heaving and coming to the conclusion I have nothing left to throw up I stand up from the floor. Flushing the toilet I move over towards the sink and begin brushing my teeth. I can hear talking coming from the kitchen since I choose the bathroom on the first floor to puke in. While trying to grab me something to drink from the kitchen I started feeling sick.

"Where is Honey?" I hear Donna ask. Whatever O replies with he must say in a low tone because I can't hear him. "Boy go check on her."

"No." Now that I hear. "You can go get her yourself."

I roll my eyes as I step out into the kitchen revealing myself. He doesn't even look my way hardly as he heads out of the kitchen. Keys in hand, and an attire picked out that I can tell is especially for a woman.

It's been an entire month of me being back home. In the beginning I tried, I'd cook meals, message him, stop by his room to attempt to have a conversation. But he pushed me away each and every time, only time he seems to be present these days is when we're going to appointments for the baby. We don't even shop for the baby together, he start buying things himself that are gender neutral. But so far he hasn't once sat down and had a conversation with me. My heart hurts at his distance and rejection. But what can I do?

Sympathy instantly forms on her face as she sees me. "Oh Honey," she calls out walking over she pulls me into a hug. "Still having bad morning sickness?"

I nod against her while she embraces me. When she finally pulls away we settle at the kitchen table while one of our various chefs finishes making breakfast. "Not even sure I can eat anything." I say while accepting the orange juice Jane a woman who also works along the chef gives me. "Thank you." I give her a small smile while she too gives me a sympathetic one. My smile falls and a frown settles onto it as she walks over to assist Chef Kib. "Am I really that pathetic? Why when someone looks at me does everyone look like they feel sorry for you."

"Because they do feel sorry for you Honey," she tells me honestly. "As they rightfully should though, my brother is moving so sloppy."

I wave her ass. "The first few weeks I would be depressed and shit when he would leave. Especially when I'd wait up and he wouldn't come back..." I trail off. "But I'm over that feeling." I partially lie. "I'm more so only sad because I never expected this for myself. I can just tell I'm going to be a single mother."

"A single mother?" She lets out a laugh as if she can't believe I'd say that. "Girl you could never be a single mother. You have all the help in the world from us, and you know O will step up. And if he doesn't you still got us-"

"You don't know that he'll step up. You don't know that." I practically snap. "I'm sorry I apologize," feeling bad for raising my voice. "I appreciate the help you guys are giving and will give even when the baby is here but...that can't completely replace what it would be like having him by my side. HE got me pregnant."

"He's just mad at the moment. If there's one thing about my brother he sure can hold a grudge. I'm not even sure he's over me giving you the keys to leave that day." We both share a laugh though there's truth in her joke.

"I just don't feel well, I'm tired Don. I'm sick all the time, never leave the house really, I just don't feel like myself. I don't feel beautiful." I feel bad piling all my deepest thoughts and insecurities onto her but I don't know who else I can. Trinity hasn't returned my calls, I don't want to call my Aunt Amber because she's already worried about me and looking for a reason to abandon her business and come down here, and I caught the hint quick that something has changed within Ruby. She's not the same and from what I can tell she's not speaking to anyone at the moment but me and Donna. Omri's too caught up in whatever bitch ass he's sniffing to notice it but I have, she's distanced herself from him.