Not Into You; Changjin

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TW: homophia and slurs

Changbin
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"Fucking again," I roll my eyes at the sight of Felix in Jin's bed.

     I'd gone to Jeongin's house last night after karaoke to make sure he got home safely. He'd accidentally had a bit much to drink, and the last thing he needed was another scandal. When I got back to my dorm this morning, I was greeted by the smell of cum and sweat. Poor Minho probably got no sleep last night.

     "Morning," Hwang mumbles, "Glad to see you survived the night."

     I start changing into a new pair of pants and grumble, "Clearly didn't survive as well as you did."

     "Is he always like this in the morning?" I pretend not to hear Felix whisper.

     "No, just after drinks, in my experience."

     "It's not the fucking hangover," I snap.

     "Then what is it? Why do you get so pissy the day after drinking?"

     "What's going on between you two? You dating? Friends with benefits? Fuck buddies?"

     "I should probably go," Felix says, and he throws his clothes on before leaving. Silence fills the dorm after he's gone.

     "Why do you fucking care what's going on between Lixie and I?" he stands and pulls some pants on angrily, "You're not my fucking dad. You shouldn't be able to tell me who I get to sleep with."

     "I just," I pause, "Isn't it weird for two guys to be together?"

     "Fucking asshole," he spits, stepping closer to me, "Say that again."

     "Fucking faggot," I roll my eyes and turn away, but he grabs my hand.

     Before I realize what's happening, his fist is already colliding with my face. It doesn't really hurt... Until it does. Fuck, he's got a mean hook. I don't try to reciprocate. I know I deserve it.

     "You're a fucking jerk," he grabs a hoodie and storms out the door.

     I'd regretted saying anything before it had finished coming out of my mouth, but it was a slip of tongue. I don't really have anything against being gay. It would be hard to be friends with Minho if I did, but I have no idea why it fucking pisses me off so much to see Jin and Felix in bed together. I consider following him for a moment, but I think better of it. If I say anything right now, I'll just end up getting more upset. I don't even have a justifiable explanation.

     Minho opens the door, "What happened?"

     I look at him, knowing that my swelling eye is undeniable, but unable to speak properly, "I... I messed up."

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Minho
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     I step into the dorm building just in time to almost get trampled by a pissed off Hyunjin. When I try to ask what's wrong, he just shrugs me off and continues walking. Maybe Binnie knows something about it?

     After I open the door to our room, I immediately realize that Bin definitely knows something. His right eye is swollen, and his legs are shaking.

     "What happened?" I ask.

     "I messed up," he mumbles, "I messed up big time."

     Before I can get to him to comfort him, he's on the floor crying.

     "I'm such a fucking asshole," he sobs as I hug him, "Min, I'm horrible."

     "What happened?"