Not Into You; Changjin

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Hyunjin
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     I check my watch, 9:15. It's been twenty-four hours, and he still hasn't apologized. He probably figures we're even now, since I punched him in his stupid face. I guess a meatball like that wouldn't understand that you can't solve disputes with fists. Fucking idiot–

     bading

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Mr. Seo: can we talk?

Hyunjin: the fuck should I listen?

Mr. Seo: because you value the friendship we had
And you don't want to see it ruined by a misunderstanding

Hyunjin: A MISUNDERSTANDING?!

Mr. Seo: let me apologize in person...
please...

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     I put my phone down and sigh. He's so stupid.

     "Who was that?" Seungmin asks. I stayed at his house last night.

     "Changbin," I grumble, "He called it a fucking misunderstanding. You don't call someone a faggot and then act like it's not your fault. Fucking jerk."

     "Yeah," he nods, "What did he want?"

     "He wanted to meet up. To talk or something."

     "Are you going?"

     "Well," I chew the inside of my lip, "I don't really want to, but–"

     "Then, don't," he interjects, "Look, I know he was a good friend, but you don't just say something like that in passing and expect it to be fine."

     "Yeah..."

     "What?"

     "He was so nice except twice. Just when I slept with Felix. So fucking protective, and he's acting like my dad."

     "Well, you can't just go back, or he'll think it'll always be okay."

     "Yeah, but," I sigh, "he's been such a great friend otherwise. He's super encouraging usually. I don't know why he was acting like that. It's not like him at all..."

     "What are you gonna do?"

     "I don't know..." I run my hands through my hair, "That's why I haven't responded."
    
     "Well," he takes my hand, "Look, I think you deserve time to think about it. Give yourself a few days. Even if it's important to you, it's still important for him to realize the weight of the situation."

     "Yeah, it's just... He already wants to apologize. Maybe he already realizes he fucked up?"

     "You can know you've done something without realizing the damage it's caused. Like when you break a glass, you don't always see the shards it leaves everywhere, but you know you should sweep the whole floor just in case. I dunno if I'm helping at all, but..."

     "No, you are," I hug him, "Thanks, Minnie. You're the best."

     I grab my phone and pull open our chat.

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Hyunjin: I need some time to think

Mr. Seo: I understand, take as much time as you need.