loving again so quickly feels almost guilt inducing i cant believe i feel so content and safe with and around them, of course its not perfect nothing is i get anxious and jealous really easily but thats just what comes with most new relationships, i think at least. she makes me feel gorgeous and like im enough and i haven't felt like that in so long i cant wait to get to know everything about them and just learn more and more as we grow, they make life feel easier i mean its been rocky and hard but im finding my stability on my own not relying on them ive made new friends who care and support me i really am so happy i miss them all the time though like all the time its sickening 😭 but its weirdly nice to have that feeling in my stomach and chest that almost aches because i wish they were near. i dont really remember what love felt like before all those years ago but now that feeling and the literal feeling of bliss when i get to hold them or they hold me must be it right
they are super closed off in some ways and deflect alot of my attempts to comfort them or show i care for what reason im not entirely sure but i have a few ideas were so the same but so different too its strange i think the way i approach anger is the way they approach sadness i dont know how ill break down the walls but there is no rush time will pass and slowly they will feel safe enough to let me in and let me see the side of them theyre not proud of.
i really do i love my girl
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Non-Fictionreal and severe trigger warnings, im venting and telling the story of how i feel when i cant keep it to myself anymore. Please dont worry for me I will be okay and i have people who love me to pick me up when i get really bad but for now this is jus...
