Malia And Kylie Oneshots

Struggling Pt.3

Kylies POV

That night I lay restless, why won't Malia talk to me? Why did she talk to Morgan? Does she like Morgan? Am I not doing enough? I look to Malia who is also awake, she is just staring at the roof, she has her headphones on, what I wouldn't give to hear what she is thinking right now. Suddenly she sits up, I don't dare to move, I even squint my eyes, she goes on her phone for the first time in forever and starts texting, she is probably texting her Mom right? Next thing I know is she is getting out of bed and leaving the room, I lay silent trying to listen in on what she's doing, I hear the front door unlock, what the hell.. I hear someone talk, Morgan, that is definitely her laugh, what is Malia doing with Morgan? Then the door shuts and Malia comes back in, she pulls something out of her pocket and puts it in her drawer before walking to the edge of the bed, she stares at me, shit does she know I'm awake?

"I love you" She sighs before gets back into bed, she puts her headphones back on and her arm around me, I nuzzle my head into her neck and I can quietly hear radio head play.

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When I wake up the next morning Malia is actually asleep, she is still wearing those damn headphones, but atleast she looks peaceful. I carefully remove her headphones and she almost instantly wakes up,

"Sorry, you were just wearing them all night" I say and she sits up a little, she tightens her arm around me again and I rest my head upon her chest, 

"Morning lovelys! I made pancakes" Ruby beams as she walks in with 3 plates, 

"Thanks Rubes" I sit up and take a plate, Ruby gets into bed beside me and I pass Malia her plate, 

"When did you wake up?" I say before I bite into the pancake,

"Like 7 I was feeling productive" Ruby laughs as she eats as well, I look to Malia to see her just flicking around her breakfast on her plate,

"Do you not like them? I can make you something else?" Ruby asks,

"Don't be picky baby, just eat them" I sigh and  she looks at me, every time she looks at me it hurts, the way her eyes look, like the life has been drained out of her,

"Okay" She mumbles and starts slowly eating her food, I can tell she is trying for me but I don't want her to try for me, I want her to try for herself. 

"I also bought us some cookies, they're Halloween themed, we can bake them" Ruby says excitedly,

"Unfortunately I'm not much of a baker, but I know someone who's literally got it in their name" I nudge Malia and she rolls her eyes in a playful manner,

"That's so corny" Ruby laughs,

"I thought it was pretty good" I shrug,

"So do you wanna do some baking?" Ruby asks,

"okay" Malia says,

"Atta girl!" I cheer,

"YAY!" Ruby squeals before tugging Malia out of bed and into the kitchen, as soon as her door shuts I almost sprint to her drawer and pull it open, I dig around for a second before I find a small bag with a few pills in it,

"What the fuck!?" I say to myself out of shock, I shove them in my pocket and throw on a hoodie before going out to the kitchen,

"These cookies are going to be bomb.com Kylie!" Ruby laughs as her and Malia are stirring something up,

"I'm sure they will be" I smile and slip on my timbs,

"Where you going?" She asks,

"I just need to see Morgan, I'll be back soon" I say before leaving, I get to Morgans friends apartment and bang loudly on the door,

"Kylie? What are you doing?" Morgan rubs her eyes,

"What is wrong with you!" I yell, anger lashing through my words,

"Excuse you-"

"Is she trying to kill herself?!" I ask as I hold up the bag of pills,

"What? No! Jesus Kylie I wouldn't give Malia something to do that!" Morgan says,

"What did you give her then?!" I say,

"They're just stimulant drugs! They make you euphoric and hallucinate, that's it. They aren't for suicide" Morgan says,

"Why would you give her drugs Morgan?" I sigh,

"When we were talking I was just saying ways she could feel something and drugs came into the conversation, and then she just text me and asked for them!" Morgan says,

"Well can you just tell me next time? Her mom asked me to take care of her, I can't let her down" I say,

"I'm sorry, I just felt bad and offered her something that helped me" She says,

"Just please don't give her drugs, she doesn't let anyone know what's going on in her head, it's infuriating but whatever she is thinking, drugs won't help" I sigh and hand her back the bag,

"Okay well if you ever need me to watch her again just let me know, I promise I won't give her anything" Morgan says,

"Yeah thanks" I smile before returning back to Malia's apartment, Ruby and Malia are watching a movie while their cookies are cooling off. I need to ask Malia about this. But not now.

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Just like last night I lay restless but this time it was on purpose, around the same time Malia got out of bed and went to her drawer, she opened it and pulled out a container of pills before taking 2, she then leaves the room. How did she get more!?

"Malia!" I sprint out the room but she is just sitting by the window, I dive down infront of her and grab onto her, I immediately put my ear to her chest, her heart is beating fast.

"Malia what did you take!?" I ask at her and she stares at me confused,

"Malia please what did you take, please don't do this to me I love you" I beg as I feel tears spill out my eyes,

"I just took some Panadol!" Malia says as she looks at me wide eyed,

"There were drugs in your drawer! I know Morgan gave you them! What are you doing baby? This isn't you" I cry,

"I-I wanted to take those for you" She says,

"For me!? Why would I want you to take drugs!?" I say,

"So that I wasn't so hard to be around-"

"Malia I want to be around you, it isn't hard, I like taking care of you" I say,

"I don't want to be someone you have to take care of!" She says, anger seeping through her voice,

"Why don't you talk to me?" I cry,

"Kylie-"

"No, I have been here and then what? because Morgan offers you drugs you talk to her?" I say,

"It wasn't like that! You don't understand what is happening. I just I need to be alone, so I can think " She says,

"Don't you realise this is a repeating event? Maybe if you just talked to someone it wouldn't happen again" I say,

"I don't want to" She says,

"But if you talk to someone, you can get help-"

"I don't want help! I don't want to be someone's burden! I don't want to talk to someone, I can help myself" She says,

"But that isn't healthy!" I argue,

"Please just go back to bed, I don't want to argue" She sighs,

"I don't want to leave you alone" I say and she grabs my hand before dragging me to her room, she opens the door and shows me the bottle of pills,

"It's just Panadol, I have a headache" She squeezes my hand,

"Come to bed with me? Please" I say feeling emotionally exhausted, she leans forward and kisses me,

"I still love you" She says and we get back into bed.

Sorry this literally sucks it's 12am and I have school tmr💔 also this will publish weird bc of the flipping chocolate chapter.