Fuck. It hurts more than usual. I really want Sophia to love me. I want to love her again. It's hard not being able to see her. I miss her smile and her voice and laugh so much. I love her so much.
I got left on read, she hasn't messaged me since October.
I miss her.
Just getting a text from her would make me so fucking happy. I keep getting these on and off feelings, but in the end whenever it comes to dating, all I want is her.
I think about relationships and how much I want a boyfriend/girlfriend, but I know that nobody is going to give me what I really crave. I just want her again. I love Sophia so so much it hurts. I wanna cry thinking about her. I can barely remember her voice. I hate this so much. I just wanna see her and possibly hug her.
I miss her so much.
I can't stop thinking about that one day at school, when she finally came back. She seemed uncomfortable when I started crying.
Does she not like me anymore? Is that when it started? I'm such a wreck. I'm a total fool for her. She doesn't feel the same. And she never will. Not again. Yet there's this huge part of me that's just praying and hoping she'll realize it soon. That I'm still here, waiting for her, as I said I would.
How do I move on from the person who made me feel so wonderful? From the girl I swear is the one? You can't just suddenly stop loving someone. Not someone like her. I can't stand this shit anymore. Fuck Tina, man. I miss her so fucking much. All I want is for us to finally be together. I want her so bad. I want to be the only person she'll ever need. I want to be all of her firsts, and I want her to be all of mine. I'm such a mess for her. She's destroying me without even knowing it. I love her so much. I don't know how to stop. I don't think I want to stop. Ever.
