I can't fucking get over her. I miss her so much I just want her back. She's so pretty, kind, sweet, funny, fuck I love her so much. I want her so badly. I just wanna see her again. Even if it's only for a few minutes. Only a few seconds. I love Sophia so fucking much it hurts. I haven't heard from her in months, and I'm scared. The thought that she might have khs scares me. I feel terrible. It's all my fault. If I had just never dated Sophia we wouldn't be here right now. Things would be good. I wouldn't be so obsessed with her. She would be happy. She would've never gotten in trouble.
But I just can't stop. No matter how much I want to move on, a part of me still hopes and craves that me and Sophia can be again. All I fucking want is her and it hurts so much. I can't have her, and I probably never can. It hurts to love her and yet I can never stop. She's my everything. All I want is her. I want her to be the one. Why am I so helpless?
