Chromatober 2024

Chromatober Day 22 - Love

[This makes use of my idea of post cannon of RQ!! It wasn't too long after RQ aftermath. Yippie more :3 Annndndndddddddd this is Light coming to terms with the fact they're aroace. It's okie Light we love you <3 Honestly surprised I didn't go with actual shipping but I kinda ship Light and M. It's more one sided like Sabre and Rainbow were though.)

Also chat terribly sorry for mentioning the one thing while M says what aroace means. I just wanted to include the full definition :3

TW: Hints to unrequited love

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[Light's POV]

Love was definitely a very confusing topic to me.

Sure as Shy Orange Steve I'd been in a committed relationship with the leader. However, as soon as I became Light Steve, it was like a switch flipped in my head.

I couldn't really pull out any feeling of romance to show with anyone anymore; I simply didn't feel it. It was a nice partnership, but I had to end it soon after I became Light. It was for the best, Confident would've only been in more pain if I kept it going.

But something had most definitely been going on between me and M.

I mean, for once in a long time, I enjoyed showing affection and she seemed to as well. She acted different when showing affection to me then others, I didn't get it..

I for sure was definitely feeling different then just regularly liking someone. But I couldn't kinda.. Process what it was.. I could understand that I liked M differently than others.

It didn't feel the same as when Shy was with the Leader though. The feeling was more.. I'm not sure how to put it. But there's definitely a difference, very small, but a difference nonetheless.

I didn't think I loved M. After all, l didn't want a relationship or the sort. But why was I so different from everyone else.. Wasn't love something that most people were meant to feel, it was important in life. How could I not feel it for anyone anymore.

"Light? You okay?" The voice broke me out of my thoughts. Right, I was with M. She was grabbing something I think.

"Yeah.. Sorry, I think I was just zoning out.." I said in my usually soft and quiet tone, looking back up at M with a slight shake of my head.

M plopped down on the couch right next to me. In fact, it was extremely close. Thinking about it more now, most people don't really sit so close on the couch when there's so much space..

Eh, it's not like I hate it. So there's no problem!

"Whatcha thinking about?" M asked, tilting her head and placing her hands in her lap.

"..I just.." I paused for a bit, biting my lip. "Why don't I love people- Why can't I feel romantic attraction. I don't get it, doesn't everybody? Shy used to feel it, why don't I?" I explained, not looking M in the eyes.

I could've sworn I saw M's eyes flash with fear, but she seemed normal a moment later, so I ignored. "Have you considered the fact you may be aroace?"

"A what now."

"Aroace. Basically it means you don't feel any romantic or sexual attraction, that's completely normal." M said, looking between me and herself.

"Ah, I guess that does classify my feelings. And you say this is perfectly normal?" I questioned, confused on why this would be 'normal'. I was, after all, very abnormal in a multitude of ways.

"Yep! It's not extremely common, but it's nothing to be ashamed of. Plenty of Steves feel like that! I just don't know why I didn't guess that about you.." I didn't catch the last sentence that was muttered.

"Hm?"

"..It's nothing.." M said sweetly, reaching out to pat my shoulder but instead hesitating.

"Alright.."

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Grahhghhghghg why do I do this to myself LET THEM KISS-

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