"Mer I am so sorry...I didn't know. I would've never wanted something for you like that. I didn't mean to hurt you...it's all my fault"
"Yeahh but don't pity yourself.."
"Mer.."
"No stop I get to talk and you listen...well nobody noticed I was cutting until I needed to have an emergency c-section...when they wanted to put the IV in my arm Bailey noticed my cuts...well hours later she asked me about it and I didn't know what to say..because I was ashamed of myself you know..." i laughed sighlty
"An-and a month later I couldn't stand the pain anymore..the pain I probably put my daughter through an-and that I-I was cutting myself I was ashamed. I didn't see a way out so...I-i um I tried to kill myself...again but this time with a uhh ten-blade...and uhh Alex found me after...well if he had found me a few minutes later I would've been dead because...I didn't cut at my wrists..." i say crying
"Oh god mer...I didn't know I-"
"Just leave it" I get out knowing my breathing got worse and it was harder for me to breathe. I was having a panic attack again... I started pacing through my office.
"Mer come here..look at me"
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The past hits
RomanceDerek choose Addison and left Meredith pregenant alone.But now derek returns to Seattle and he sees how bad he hurt Meredith. TW Sh,suicide
