Forever || Ashton Irwin||second book to Together

What Next

*Alex's POV*

After everything that happened tonight I am beyond tired. But before I went with Ashton to the hotel, we stayed at Anna's apartment until late at night. Even though Calum was there, I tried to stay away from him as much as I could. I don't know if I could ever trust Calum again.

Around eleven o'clock I wanted to leave. I told Ashton, and so we got ready to leave.

"What happened between you and Jackson?" Ashton asked, taking one hand off the steering wheel and put his hand on my thigh.

"Um well I told him that we were done and that I was moving out." I say.

"So where do you think you're going to stay?" he asked me. I just shrugged because I honestly had no idea where to go. I could stay at Anna's, but Calum is there, and Anna is there with Luke.

Ashton was quiet for the rest of the way back to the hotel.

I grabbed my things from the back of Ashton's car, and followed him inside of the hotel. We get to the room, and I put my stuff on the floor. I stand there feeling the awkwardness starting to suffocate me. It's been two years since Ashton and I have seen each other. What the hell am I supposed to say?

I slowly turn around. My breath was taken away from me. I saw Ashton looking at me with an expression that I couldn't decipher.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" I question, "I shouldn't have let you go." he whispered with pain in his voice. I couldn't take it any longer I broke down crying. I slid to the floor.

"I always mess things up." I cry, I couldn't look at Ashton because he was one of those mess ups. I feel Ashton's strong arms come around me, I try to move away from him because I was so ashamed of myself, I couldn't let him touch me.

"Shhh, Alex, it isn't your fault. Nothing is your fault." Ashton coos but that only make me cry harder. "Don't you understand? Ever since you met me, I only brought pain to you life so far, Alex. I should be the one at fault."

I finally lean into Ashton and he puts me on his lap, and just cry on his shoulder. I feel him shift and I feel myself being lifted and being laid down. I feel his warmth leave, and I start crying harder. I open my eyes to find Ashton. I see him walking away.

"Where are you going?" I ask him, "Um, I was going to try to get another room, so you could sleep alone." This makes me a baby, but the sound of him leaving me made me cry harder than I have ever before. I didn't want to be alone.

"Please, please don't leave me. I don't want to be alone." he looks at me trying to decide weather or not he should stay. I know he blames most things on himself, but it's not true. I messed most of it up.

He finally walks over, and I scoot over so he has room to lay down. He lays down next to me and puts his arms around me. I'm still crying and Ashton whispers sweet nothings into my ear, and wipes away my tears away. Then I finally start to calm down, and I could feel myself fall asleep.

"I love you, Alex." is the last thing I hear before I fall asleep.

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*Ashton's POV* 

I wake up the next day to an empty bed. I sigh remembering Alex said something about having classes this morning. I stand up throwing the covers aside and I walk over to my suit case and grab a random shirt and some skinny jeans. 

I texted Luke telling him that I was coming over to Anna's to hang out, since Alex was busy with her college classes. 

I get to my car to drive to Anna's. I wish Alex went to college in California. There are to many bad memories here and I just want a fresh start with her and I don't want to start that here.

I pull up into Anna's apartment parking lot and I park my car and I make my way up to her room. I knock on her door and I stand back and wait for her to open the door. She opens the door. She had her hair in a messy bun and she had glasses and some sweats on. 

"Luke isn't here." She says, taking a drink from her coffee. Where the hell is that kid.

"Oh, uh well can I just stay and hang out with you then? Alex is at her classes and I have nothing to do." I say, Anna and I did need to talk. She is a good friend and I like to have her opinion on things.

"Yeah sure, I'll be down in a minute." I nod and walk back down into the living room. I need my own apartment, I'm running out of money because the hotel is so fucking expensive. 

I sit on the couch. I hear soft footsteps coming down the stairs. She walks over and she sits down next to me. She sets her coffee down on the coffee table giving me her full attention. 

"What's up Ash? Everything okay between you and Alex?" She asks. 

"Yeah, yeah everything is great between us I think." I say, hoping that, that is still true. "I just don't want to be here in Florida, there are too many bad memories here. I just need a fresh start with Alex. I don't want to start here where we broke up because of something so stupid." 

"Yeah, Luke wants me to move to California with him." She says, she looks down at her hands that were placed in her lap. "I just really don't want to move all the way over there and Luke got mad about that." 

Wow he must really love this girl .

"He got mad at you because you don't want to move?" I ask, a little confused about that whole situation. 

"Yeah, that's why he isn't here today. He will get over it though. That's why I'm not too concerned." She says, grabbing her coffee and taking a drink of it. 

"I want to move to California too. And I want Alex to be with me, but she has classes here." 

"You know I'm Alex's best friend, and let me tell you she hates college, and she would do anything for you."

I was a little skeptical on that information. Anna chuckles at me, "She does, Ashton. When she was dating Jackson I could tell that there was always something wrong, it was like she was missing a part of her. She was missing you. She loves you Ashton, she's just not very good at showing it." 

"But she wouldn't want to move all the way to California." 

"You would be surprised what Alex would do with you if you asked."