Awakening, book 4

15.

Sebastian's pov

Five years ago

Ava looked at me with a little bit of disappointment as I buttoned up the rest of my shirt. We had just had a really big fight. And I may have started it.

I've only been here a few months... but the fact that there is so many ancient magic users here and they aren't always trying to keep the area safe was stressing me out.

Ava had said it was because she strongly believed that they only intervene in extremely bad things and that the ministry and aurors handle the 'non otherworld' threats.

But in my world I did everything by myself.

"Aren't you worried? What if something happened? And you were just teaching at school." I asked her.

"My job is to protect the school. Eleazar and Anne handle the area around the school, when they aren't sneaking off to other worlds that they think I don't know about,"

"How do you know you're safe?" I asked trying to not to raise my voice. The last thing I wanted to do was scare her.

She shrugged. "No one has taken me out yet... sorta."

I groaned at her nonchalant-ness. "I'll be back," I huffed.

As I walked for our door she sighed sadly. "You'll understand soon.. it's not worth risking your life every time,"

I shook my head but didn't say anything as I left. If I were to say what I feel she'd probably get more angry. and she's able to fight with me and still be the single most attractive woman in the whole world. During that entire fight I kept almost giving in. But she needs to understand how dangerous the world is.

You're being mean to her, I heard my own voice say in my head. I didn't respond to it. I'm never going to responded to it. You need to take care of her.

I groaned as soon as I was outside. Why is my own voice annoying me so much? My mind was suddenly filled with memories I didn't recognize.

It was the other Sebastian pushing his memories in of him and Ava. They were amazing and beautiful. But they were pushing my Ava. I rubbed my forehead trying to push them back but this bastard was strong.

"I'm trying!" I finally yelled. The crickets that were chirping around me got quieter while I bent down and covered my ears. "I'm trying to accept this but I can't loose her. I can't loose my Ava!"

Looking to my left and realized I was at the small cemetery outside of Hogsmead. I looked around, confused on how long I had been walking.

Glancing at my watch I realized it had been a few hours since I'd left the house. I sighed realizing I was probably worrying Ava by being gone so long.

As I turned to leave a certain headstone made me do a double take. I got closer, walking through the gates and looking down at the drying sunflowers.

My shoulders dropped as it hit me where I was. The sunflowers were drying but someone had put them down recently. Letting out a shaky breath I brushed off the leaves on top.

"I'm trying..." I said softly to the head stone. "You aren't making it easy,"

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