Tainted Heart

Chapter 26

Despite closing her eyes to sleep, she couldn’t sleep at all. She opened her eyes and Yunhee sleeping peacefully. She got off from the bed and got of the room. There was a long balcony at the end of the corridor from which sea could be seen easily. Walking through the corridor, she went there but reaching there, she saw Yoongi standing there. His back was facing her so he didn’t realise her presence.

She thought for some time whether she should move forward or not. She shouldn’t be alone with a person who was already taken by her friend especially not when she loved the same person and wanted to move on. She turned around to go. But she didn’t know why but she didn’t go back but moved forward only. She stood beside him.

Yoongi was smoking standing there as he also couldn’t sleep. He noticed her presence beside her and turned towards her. Moon extended her hand which made him confused.

"Do you have an extra cigarette?" Moon asked making Yoongi shocked.

"You...you smoke?" Yoongi asked.

"Wae? Can't I? Give me one if you have." Moon said and made a gesture with her hand.

Yoongi passed her a cigarette. She took it and gestured something with her eyes. Yoongi gave her a 'what' look.

Moon chuckled. "Lighter." Yoongi understood and passed the lighter to her. She took the lighter and lit the cigarette with a swift motion like a bro. Moon looked at the sea while smoking. There was dark outside and hardly anything could be seen but still it was so peaceful to watch the dark sea. Noticing his gaze on her, she said, "I am not any chain smoker. But I know how to smoke and I did smoke before. But I prefer to drink rather than to smoke."

"I didn’t ask anything." Yoongi said making his face a boiled dumpling. Moon looked away stopping herself from chuckling.

"You said you are afraid of darkness. So aren’t you afraid now?" Yoongi asked. Moon turned to him. Her gaze was still.

"Let me out, please. Let me out. Open the door." A little girl in a dark room screamed banging at the door.

Moon's gaze shifted. She sighed taking a drag from the cigarette in her hand. "I am only afraid of darkness where I can't see anything and when I am alone. If that night, Yunhee wasn’t there, I think they wouldn’t even find me or even if they would find me, I think I would be gone to life after death already." She chuckled.

For Yoongi, it was not funny and he wanted her to shut up and not to say that again. But he resisted.

"Besides I am not alone here. There is lights too and also I love sea. I love seeing sea from afar." Moon said with a smile.

"Why from afar?" Yoongi asked.

"I can't swim." She replied. Her mind went back to years back where the little girl was almost drowning and trying her best to survive.

There was a moment of silence. Cold breeze was blowing around. Yoongi suddenly noticed her bruised knuckles. He then remembered the time when she was crying and beating Jeohan with her hands.

"Wait for me." Yoongi said and went away. Moon stared at his disappearing figure. She then turned to the sea.

'Miyeon, are you doing the right thing? Leaving Yunhee alone in the room sleeping and talking with her boyfriend in her absence while having a crush, not even crush but loving him? Are you doing justice to yourself? To Yunhee? Or to Yoongi? Miyeon-ah, let it go. But why does it hurt?' she thought.

Suddenly her cigarette was snatched away from her hand replacing by an ice pack. "Treat your knuckles first." He said. Moon was stunned. But gave a nod anyways.