Tainted Heart

Chapter 47

Time skips,

Miyeon and Ryung entered the restaurant after Ryung got the keys from Yeong-suk. Miyeon took a seat while Ryung went towards refrigerator to take some alcohol out. Ryung changed his phone's setting so that Beom and others could hear them but Miyeon wouldn't be able to hear them.

"A bottle of beer." Miyeon said calmly.

"Not wine?" Ryung looked at her surprised.

"You talk too much. Bring me beer, you giraffe." Miyeon said. Her tone was different what she used on Yunhee, Yoongi or others.

Yoongi felt a bit jealous as he realised that she was not that free with any of them except her cousin and her friends.

Ryung brought one bottle of beer and another bottle of wine and two glasses. He sat across from her. They were facing each other. He poured her drink and asked, "What happened?"

Miyeon grabbed the glass and sipped on her drink. She chuckled. "What happened?" she repeated his words. "Yoongi-ah....." she paused. "He...one kind of broke up with me. He......refused to recognise me as his girlfriend." Miyeon replied. Her gaze was still.

"You came here after that?" Ryung asked.

"I....thought about it a lot. About where to go, whether to go to my apartment or to my parents' house, or to go away and leave everything behind. But you were the most comfortable one." Miyeon chuckled.

She paused and drank some more alcohol. "When he was throwing me out of his life, there were people who were looking at me with sympathy, disgust, bitchy looks. It reminded of me about.....about the....past." she paused. Ryung quietly listened.

On the other hand, Yoongi was feeling too much guilty for behaving like that. But he knew she would never believe a normal breakup. To make her get over from him, he had to hurt him. Beom Seok couldn't understand which past Miyeon was talking about. Others just listened without interfering.

"I think I was really dependent on him. I even stopped medicines out of nowhere." she chuckled. She bit her lips. Her lips quivered. "Sometimes, I think that what if that day, eomma didn't come after me, probably Sun-hi would lead a better life. Eomma and Mr. Lee could have a better life. Everything could have been perfect. Perfect." she whispered the last word. Tears clouded in her ears.

Haejin, Yunhee and every one looked at Beom Seok whereas he was listening carefully. He had a lot of questions and no answer right then.

"Ryung-ah, I am lost. I don't know what to do in my life. Have I done well by taking over Sun-hi's dream? I tried my best. Was it worth it? I really don't know." her tears started flowing down.

"I don't want to go back. I don't have any reason to go back. But I don't have any reason to stay here either." She finally let her tears and sobs out.

"I feel guilty. The guilt is eating me. He wasn't at fault. I wish my brother was alive. I wish he was alive. I wish I didn't act like that that day. I really wish he was alive." She started crying. "Those eyes, those looks, it haunts me. I can't sleep, I can't smile. I feel guilty so bad." she let her sobs out.

She wiped her tears off. "Yoongi-ah...he had no idea what he was healing. He was healing me even knowing nothing about it. I do deserve love, right? Then why always me?" she palmed her face and let out all cries and tears.

Ryung didn't say anything. He let her speak. He knew everything. He grew up watching everything. He knew the fact that Miyeon needed to let it out. Though, she didn't let it out completely, but it was enough.

Beom Seok was shocked. What brother was she talking about? Haejin was about to ask when she saw his reaction.

Ryung cut the call and stood up to be the true friend for his panda.