The worker // FREENBECKY

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FREEN POV

I've moved out into a smaller apartment and then I went to see riley today, I took her out and then brought her back to my apartment, she prefers staying her because she said it's cozy, even though Irin is trying her best riley tells me she gets annoyed at riley sometimes and that her mom is always on her phone.

Now you ask me how that makes me feel, I just feel as if my daughter is being neglected sometimes and sometimes she feels too scared to say anything to her mom incase her mom has a sudden outbreak.

What kills me the most is when riley asks me where Becky is? How do I explain that my own insecurities is the reason why Becky doesn't want to be around me, I let my insecurities stop something so beautiful even though Becky gave me no reason to be insecure I knew that she accepted me, cared for me despite me not being financially stable.

I could say I'm doing quite well considering the amount of customers my bakery has, it gets a lot during the day and i should be proud but everytime I remember she helped me with this, everything the whole bakery reminds me of her, the time we painted and worked together on what kind of decoration we wanted.

When she kissed me in here and I knew from that day she was the one, I just knew it when she brought me lunch and I couldn't wipe the smirk of my face that day, I couldn't control my heart beat.

I love her

I love her so much.

And I've lost her, because I'm insecure and I believe good things just don't happen to me, I destroyed it before my life could actually take her away from me.

But I miss her, I miss her so much and I never even got to tell her I love her, it feels shit knowing she's on the other
side of the world, it felt shit leaving her apartment, it felt shit looking at scones and it hurts when I can't see any messages.

Lingling: Hey Becky landed today, was wondering if us three can take riley out

Freen: If she wants to take rileyout she has to message me and not get you to do it

Lingling: O okay, what tf happened to you

Freen: Becky Armstrong happened to me

Lingling: I kinda gathered

Freen: where is she btw?

Lingling: ummm japan?

Freen: seriously?

Lingling: Jamaica?

Freen: LINGLING I KNOW SHES HERE BUT WHERE IS SHE LIKE LOCATION?

Lingling: Umm Grand Canyon

Freen: oh my god

Lingling: hey she's my best friend I can't exploit her

Freen: IM UR BEST FRIEND TOO

Lingling: I know but I wouldn't exploit your whereabouts either, plus that would cause my wife and I to fight cos Becky's her baby

Freen: SHES my baby too

Lingling: from the looks of it looks like she isn't🤦‍♀️

Freen; SHES always my baby and she better know that, WHATS she saying about me

Lingling: I'm trying to be a good mother I cannot repeat those words🙂

Freen: seriously? she that mad at me?

Lingling: Na I'm joking, she wants to see riley but doesn't want to talk to you

Freen: did she change her number?

Lingling: yeah pretty much

Freen: lol I knew it, it's fine I'll see her soon & tell her I said that

Lingling: my wife will kill me if I bring u up, she's trying to cheer Becky up

Freen: I guess it's good that she's getting cheered up, I'll drop riley off to you guys in the morning

Lingling: okay & don't tell your wife that Becky's going to see her ok

Freen: I know don't worry, has Becky eaten?

Freen: she looks thinner that's why Orm was mad at her but we've just ordered pizza and desert so don't worry I'm gonna fatten her up

Freen: Ahh thank god!

Lingling: are you guys going to sort this out or?

Freen: Nope, she deserves better I guess, it's the truth and too many people have said it to me including Irin and her father.

Lingling: who gives a shit who says that, it's just you two and others shouldn't have a input and riley fucking loves her, we were actually worried riley suffered from separation anxiety from Becky because she cried a lot when we went to Majorca, we had to face time Becky to calm her down, I think in your heart and riley's heart you both know she's the missing piece in your lives....

Freen: Help me ling, I fucked up

I re read lingling's message as I sob in bed, wrapped in the sheets alone.

Lingling: When I drop riley back home tomorrow we will speak about this okay, just relax I've got your back

Freen: does she hate me??

Lingling: that isn't possible for Becky

Freen: are you sure??

Lingling: yes I promise.

I can't sleep now, I don't know what I've done and what to do, I jump out of bed and I get changed and run to Becky's apartment.

She doesn't open the door but I remembered she gave me spare keys so I open it and storm in.

She's sitting there on her couch, she purposely ignored me but she has a book in her hand and her glasses on, she looks so effortlessly beautiful, although she had become thinner and it's my fault, I snatch the book out of her hand, I grab her book mark and put it in there and then I throw it on the couch.

"What do you want?" She quietly says

"Look at me" I respond as she does everything in her power not to look at me.

So I crouch down to my knees and pull her neck and crash my lips into hers, she whines quietly but I don't let her go so easily.

"It's always when you want to come back to me you come, other than that I don't have a say in this at all" she sobs but I peck her lips lightly as I use my thumb to wipe her eyes and kiss her comfortingly.

"I'm sorry, I promise becbec, I love you to bits" I murmur into her mouth, my butterflies are on butterflies right now because I felt so much relief getting it out of me.

"Do you mean that" she cries even harder and I chuckle into her mouth as she pulls me harder

"More than anything in the world and I'm sorry I made you feel like that okay, from now on I'm here for the long run I promise you this won't happen again"

She opens her mouth to say something back and I know what she was about to say but I'm hit at the back of my head with something and I lose my consciousness.

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