The worker // FREENBECKY

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BECKY POV

"Yeah I went to check on your house and here is your post" Orm says as she hands it to me

"Thank you" I smirk as she goes into my shower room, she's been staying in my house for a couple of days because I've been scared and a bit lonely.

I've moved houses for a little while because the social services in this city are lacking staff and my company moved me here for the meantime.

It's been quite lonely here, especially because I have no contact with Freen or riley. This is for the best I remind myself but nothing really takes away the pain of having something making you feel complete and settled and then it getting snatched in a blink of an eye.

This is odd?

I open up one of the envelopes

Dear Becky,

I'm not asking for you back and neither am I telling you what you did was a big mistake, I'm honestly from the bottom of my heart apologising because you are right, I've got too much built up insecurities inside of me that it had effected what us two had, I didn't have enough time to tell you that I love you so much, I've told you but I've not shown you, I believe the universe conspired in order for me to find you, you entered and saved my life even if you don't understand how you did, you did it so effortlessly and just so naturally, I didn't get to tell you that your so beautiful when you blush, I didn't get to tell you that when you laugh you make my heart beat faster, when you smile it heals all my heart break and fixes all my scars.

I didn't thank you for loving riley more than her own mother does, I didn't even thank you for making me laugh on my darkest days, when I'd sit at home and cry to myself id randomly text you and even if you didn't know you'd message me back something dorky and it would make me smile. The point is you deserve so much better and so much and never in the world do I want you to have someone that isn't me but I promise that I only want you happy, I just hope your eating and doing well. I love you so much. Your an amazing person and this month has been hell without you, not even seeing you for 1 second has been torture but I'm trying to get better. I hope your doing well, don't skip any meals please.

I love you baby and please try to call me and let me know you are okay.

Freen

I fold Freen's letter after reading it over and over again and my eyes are brought into tears. My god I'm not coping well even if it's been a month I'm not doing well.

I'm here in another city instead of being there with riley and her. I wonder if riley is okay, I hope she understands I don't hate her or think bad of her, I'm leaving because me being there destroyed Irin a lot and made Irin lash out on her due to jealousy and I don't have any place in that kind of relationship, Irin gave birth to her, I'm just a social worker.

Even if I've fallen in love with riley and see her as my own, even if my hearts shattered into pieces because I lost the best things that's ever happened to me Freen and riley both, I need them to do better without me, I've ruined everything for Freen and riley.

I go through my phone and look at the selfie we took as a family, it's still my wallpaper I should probably change it because everytime I look at it I'm reminded of the day the whole world froze and it was just us in Freen's house. We were a family that day and I realised that day that's all I wanted. A family who actually valued me and didn't try to control me.

Dear Freen

I'm sorry for leaving the town, it wasn't your fault, I don't want you to sitting their and blaming yourself, my
company wanted me to go to another branch because they didn't have enough staff however I'm doing okay, I've eaten well.

I don't want you to blame yourself or call yourself selfish, it isn't your fault that you were told all those stupid words, it just makes me mad that you believe them because you don't understand how I see you in my eyes, for me your the best person in the world, riley would agree with me on that. I caused too much drama in your lives and riley needs to build up her relationship with Irin, if I continue seeing her she will begin hating her mom and that isn't right Freen.

I understand what you did with JB and I know you feel bad but I'm honestly over it, do not stress out and blame yourself, for my sake just take care of yourself, your amazing and I won't ever for a second forget what you and riley did for me.

Becky

I shouldn't send that to her should I?

I scrunch it up and throw it in the bin. You promised yourself no contact with her, not even a letter Becky, if you do that your going to make her remember and be even more heart broken.

I'm heartbroken after reading her letter imagine when she opens mine. I can't do this. I force myself to get into bed and fall asleep.

We're getting close to the ending... 🙂