The Best Friend Pact || Jungwon || 18+

4. Questions and Mini Golf

Funny enough, the rest of our trip goes fine. Jungwon and I act as if we never slept together and enjoy our time with our friends.

We go home for Christmas and meet up to exchange gifts. His grandmother and sister got me a lovely gold locket with pictures of Jungwon and I as kids in it.

But as we drove back to school, there was something I couldn't get out of my mind. I was going to have to ask.

"Jungwon," I said, looking out of the passenger window. "Can I ask you something about... that night?"

"Which night?" He asked, keeping up the pact that we forget about it.

"I swear, just one question and I won't bring it up again." I said. "Please?"

"Fine," he sighed. "What is it?"

"You had a condom."

"That isn't a question."

"Okay," I said. "Why did you have a condom? Were you expecting to sleep with someone else that night?"

"No, I wasn't." He shook his head as we stopped at a red light. "I always have one with me. Because situations happen, as we both found out the other night, and it's better to be safe."

I nodded, thinking that was a good answer. But I had been best friends and roommates with him for years, why didn't I know he carried condoms with him? Were there some in this car? How much sex did he have? How many girls had he been with?

The thought made me squirm and I sank in my seat, not looking at him. What was with this anger all of a sudden? He is a healthy twenty one year old boy, he should get laid.

"Now you are all quiet and weird." Jungwon said after some time. "Do you want to stop for ice cream or hot chocolate?"

"No."

"Are you hungry? We could grab something to eat. We still have a ways back to school."

"No."

"Are you all right?"

"Yes."

"Stop with the one word answers, Nari! You can't honestly be upset with me for being safe, especially with you."

I didn't answer, just pushing myself further in the seat, looking out of the window. I wasn't upset that he used a condom with me, I was thankful. But I couldn't kill this feeling in me that was upset that I could have been another girl for that condom.

"Tell me what's wrong." Jungwon said as we got into our college town. "Please."

"Nothing is wrong."

"There is something wrong and I don't know how to fix it if I don't know what it is." He said.

"How long have you been carrying condoms with you?"

"Since I was fifteen."

"You had sex at fifteen and didn't tell me?" I asked, shocked.

"No. But, you know, you never know."

"And I'm not mad. It is just weird not to know everything about you."

"You want me to tell you when I use the condoms?" He asked, sounding unsure himself.

"No," I quickly said. I didn't want him to use them at all, I thought and shook it away. "I mean you can, but..."

"Can we please put this behind us?"

"Absolutely." I nodded as we pulled into our apartment complex.

"Okay, now let's get our stuff up and get ready to go to Jay's."