illinois boy | devin hayes |

sixteen

(things are gonna speed up then slow down again.)

my sophrome year of online schooling went by fast. that was the year devin and I were as strong as ever. also known as the year devin and I lost our virginity to each other.

my junior year, went by awfully slow. my dad came home. my mom had another baby. Isabella. she's the cutest little thing. she's now one. gonna be two in july.

my senior year was absolute hell. devin got even bigger in fame. that meaning he got even more fans. that meaning he got even more hate and I got even more hate. that was the year him and I called it quits. forever, I guess. we just fought a lot when he got bigger. he never had time for me. so we just split.

now he's twenty and singing. he's made it pretty far. in life and in his music career. I'm proud if him, I am. he worked hard to get where he his.

I'm now nineteen. still living with my parents. helping out with ten year old grace and two year old Izzy. my dad is finally home. for good. he won't be leaving at all.

over the past couple of months, I've died my hair. its a beautiful color. its like a green blue. (pic up top.) I love it and so does my family.

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"sweetie, will you take grace to get her school supplies?"
"sure, mom." I sigh. I rush upstairs to my room.

I change into some shorts and a black shorts bra. I pull a flannel on and leave it unbuttoned. I slip into my converses and leave my hair in its curly state. I grab my phone and car keys.

I go downstairs, seeing mom holding money and grace ready to leave. I smile and grab the money.
"that's extra for lunch."
"thanks." she nods and kisses both of our cheeks. I smile and grab graces hand.

we walk to my jeep and get in. we buckle up and I start my baby. I turn the music up and drive off to Walmart.

-

I quickly find a parking spot and park the car. I grab the money and get out. grace follows lead and grabs my hand.

we get inside, grab a cart and head off to the school supply section.

-

after three hours of shopping for school, were finally done. she has enough stuff to last her this school year and next.

I sigh as I finally relax in the drivers seat.
"I'm never taking you shopping again."
"that's a lie." I giggle.
"food?"
"yeah."

I smile and drive to McDonald's. I park the car and get out. grace grabs my hands and we walk inside.

once I walk in, my stomach twists. that's odd.
"hayden." grace says seriously.
"what?" I ask.
"Devin's here. with jack and jack." I freeze. "they spotted us."
"shit." I mutter. I ignore them. even if I don't know where they are. I step up in line and order mine and graces food.

she gets our drinks as I wait for food. once the food comes, grace picks a seat. of course, she picks the booth by devin. I glare at her. she giggles and eats her food.

I only ordered a larger fry and burger.
"why didnt you order more? you always eat big here." grace says.
"I'm loosing weight." I lie.

truth is, after devin and I split, I stopped eating. it was about six months ago, I started eating again but it was very little.

I eat all of my food when my phone buzzes. I see Devin's name and instantly feel butterfly's. I open the message and read it.

'eat more. just because we broke up doesn't mean you have to starve yourself. eat. I still care about you.'

I sigh.
"I'll be back."

I stand up, going to order more food.

-

once we leave McDonalds, I drive back home.

I help grace carry all her bags in. for the next hour or two, I help her take tags off and put everything in her bag.

why do grade school kids need so much stuff? I remember in grade school, you got a list of everything you need and then you barely use half of it. its stupid.
"when do you go to school?" I ask.
"Monday."
"that's two days away. beach tomorrow?"
"YES!" I giggle at her excitement.

Izzy waddles into the room. I giggle.
"hey, babe."
"hi." I smile and kiss her forehead as she sits on my lap.
"wanna go to the beach tomorrow?"
"YAY, BEACH!" I giggle. she gets up and starts running down the stairs. as she gets further away I can hear her yelling 'MOMMY BEACH!'

I giggle and kiss graces forehead. I go into my room, pulling my phone out. I dial Ellie's number.
"hey, love. what's up?" she asks. I sigh. "what happened?"
"I saw devin today. he was at McDonald's while grace and I were eating."
"you miss him don't you?"
"more than anything." she sighs.
"well let's see if he texts you or calls you. if he does, he obviously misses you."
"okay." I sigh. "anyway, wanna go to the beach with me, grace and Izzy?"
"sure. what time?"
"ten?"
"sounds good."
"alright, I'll see you tomorrow."
"okay."
"bye." I giggle. she giggles and hangs up.

I sigh and go on twitter. I favorite some tweets, follow some fans and then go o Devin's twitter.

'I miss you..'

I sigh. I go on my twitter to make a tweet.

'I miss you more..'

I sigh and go on Instagram. I stand up to take a mirror picture. I fix my hair and pose. I do a peace sign and snap the picture. I pick a filter and think of a caption.

'you never know how much you miss someone until they're gone.'

I post and instantly get likes and comments.

I decide to look at photos I'm tagged in. I follow some people with cool edits. I like some peoples photos too. I even comment on a few.

I smile as I see some fans freak out. I smile more and exit the app. I lock my phone and decide gk take a nap.

I cuddle into my bed and close my eyes.

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chapter sixteen. remember, I'm going on vacation for almost a week. I love you guys so much. if you have any questions, you can dm me on Instagram

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