illinois boy | devin hayes |

twenty one

its been there months. which means I'm three months pregnant. so exciting.

don't get me wrong, I would love to be a mother. but not right now nor with that boys baby. I want to be married and then get pregnant.

I sigh. devin and I are currently sitting on my bed. I groan as pain rushes through my stomach. its been going on all day.
"what's wrong, babe?"
"there's been pain all day. and I'm bleeding."
"come on. were going to the hospital." I sigh and grab my phone.

the fans do not know I'm pregnant. nor do I want to tell them.

-

at the hospital, I'm called back into a room.
"we need some tests." the doctor says. "and I'm sorry to say, but you've just had a miscarriage." i sigh. devin grabs ahold of my hand. "father?"
"no." devin says. the doctor raises an eye row. I sigh.
"the baby was a mistake. I was raped."
"oh. I'm sorry."
"its okay, you didn't know."

once we leave the hospital, we walk around a bit.
"hey, at least I'm not going to be a mom yet. and good thing it's not his baby anymore. that child would've been the ugliest thing alive." devin chuckles.

"what do you want to do today?" devin asks.
"I don't care."
"lunch date, movies and then home to cuddle?" he suggests.
"sounds perfect to me." I smile up at him. he grins.

-

we ended up eating at olive garden. and of course, the waitress had to for with him. which led to me getting jealous, devin turning her down by kissing me and then us eating and leaving the place.

we had to wait forever at the movies but ended up watching pitch perfect two. it was an awesome movie. I loved it. I can't wait for the next one.

after that, devin and I ended up ended walking around the mask for a while. where we got mobbed by fans. so we promised to meet some of them off they all calmed down. it took forever to do so but when they did, we met quite a few of them.

I love the hand so much. some of them are so supportive of devin and I. they love us together. then there's the ones who think I'm a slut and not good enough for devin. that's done that even think Devins a player and not good enough for me. which is bullshit.

now devin and I are back at my house. well, my moms.

anyway, I change into some shorts and Devin's T-shirt. I lay in bed next to devin and turn the tv on. I let him pick something to watch.

I have no idea what he picked, but all I know is it's a movie. I think it's Annie.

all of the sudden, devin starts singing.
"What would I do without your smart mouth
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

My head's underwater
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing in my head for you

My head's underwater
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh
Give me all of you, oh oh

Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all though it's hard

Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all, of you, oh oh oh."

I grin as he finishes.
"I missed your voice." I mumble. he chuckles.
"I missed yours too, babe." I smile and kiss his cheek. "I love you."
"I love you." I smile. he smiles and pulls me into him. I lay my head on his chest and tangle our legs together. he kisses my forehead and we continue watching tv.

-

throughout the night, both devin and I kept waking up. both my little sisters aren't feeling good and keep throwing up in the bathroom in the hallway. which is right by my bedroom.

I feel bad for them.

I sigh and roll over. I get comfortable and Devin's arms wrap around me. I smile slightly and try to sleep. once I am, I'm only woken up by my sisters again.

I groan and finally turn a bit of music on. I turn it up, loud enough to block the noise of them throwing up. devin sighs, kisses my cheek and buries his face in my neck. he pulls my back closer to him. I sigh and close my eyes and try to fall asleep.

"I love you, hayden."
"I love you, devin." he kisses my neck and we finally get to sleep without being interruptted.

-

OMG OMG OMG

I'M SO FREAKING SORRY IT TOOK FOREVER TO UPDATE.

IT'S BEEN CRAZY.

SCHOOL. MY NEPHEW BEING BORN. SCHOOL. CHEERLEADING AND NOT SCHOOL.

I'LL TRY TO UPDATE MORE OFTEN.

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I'M SO SORRY