illinois boy | devin hayes |

nineteen

"Patrick, please don't do this. please don't."
"SHUT UP!" he yells slapping me across the face. I don't make a sound. "you deserve everythimg that comes your way. have fun down here. I'll be back later for some more fun."

tears fall down my cheeks. please find me.

*devins pov*

*2 days after hayden was taken*

"what do you mean she's gone?" I ask.
"she's gone, devin. when we woke up, she wasn't in her bed. all her belongings are here."

"Mr and mrs beckley, were doing everything to find her. well do anything to find her." the cop says. "did she act like she was wanting to run away?" her parents turn to me.
"no, she didn't last night. we went out and I brought her back."
"was there anyone at the party following her or anything?" I scratch the back of my neck.
"yeah.. zayn malik.."
"okay. anyone else in her life?"
"no. not that I know of. I haven't seen her in two years. I'm her ex." they nod.
"any friends that would know?"
"I do." Ellie says coming inside.
"you are?"
"I'm Hayden'sbestfriend, Ellie. I know who."
"who is that?"
"Patrick lance. her ex. he was abusive." he parents gasp.
"how do you know he's abusive?"
"I saw her bruises and she told me. she tried hiding it."
"okay. well look him up."

-

*Hayden's pov*

I scream as Patrick beats me. there's cuts and bruises all over my body. I'm naked now. he's raped me five times in two days. when he's not doing that, he's beating me.

I hear sirens and scream as he kicks me.
"SHUT UP!" another kick and punch.

I hear footsteps above us and scream. he starts beating me. he's pulled off me and two girl cops come to me. they carefully put my undergarments on and cover me with a blanket. one of the big cops switch places with the girl. he licks me up.

my eyes start to close and it gets hard to breath.
"hayden, keep your eyes open." he says. "hayden." my world is consumed in darkness.

-

my eyes slowly open. I squint as the bright lights and white walls blind me.

I move causing something to go off. it beeps a coupletimes and then a doctor and a nurse rush in. they smile and sigh.
"ah, you're just awake." I smile a little.
"I'll get your parents."

they both leave and the nurse comes back with my parents.
"hi, sweetie."
"hi, mommy."
"hi, baby."
"hi, daddy."
"how are you?" my mom asks.
"I feel like crap." they sigh.
"Devin's here. he wants to see you."
"no. I don't want him to see me." they sigh.
"I'm sure he'll understand."

we talk for awhile when I have to pee. "I need to pee." I say.
"I'll go get the nurse." I nod and hold my pee. she comes back soon with a nurse.
"now, I don't know how much pain you'll feel when you stand. you'll feel pain when you walk because of what he did." I nod. she helps me stand and I gasp at all the bruises and cuts on my legs. tears fill my eyes but I hold them back.

-

I got to leave about two days after that. I have pain when I walk but I can take that. I haven't let any friends see me. not even Ellie. only my family.

mom told me devin bought the house across the street. him and some people from digi tour are staying there for a few weeks. I didn't like the idea.

I sigh and have my mom help me change my underwear. she slips a bra on me and I pull on sweats and a tank top. I don't care if people see my bruises. I sigh and slip my shoes on. I pull my hair into a messy bun and sit in the wheel chair.

we check out and I get in the back seat. I sigh and lean back.

-

getting home, I look across the street and see everyone outside. I sigh and pull on the sweater my mom brought me. it hangs over one shoulder. I sigh as my dad opens the door. he helps me out. I lean on his side, still sore.

I take a step and lean over and puke. the doctor said I would probably do that a few times. I sigh and wipe my mouth.
"can you walk?"
"yeah. I'm fine." I ignore the puke and continue walking inside. he helps me upstairs where Ellie is sitting on my bed. I sigh as my dad leaves.

-

"I'm glad you're okay."
"yeah."
"why didn't you want anyone to see you in the hospital?"
"I didn't want people to see me like that."
"boo, I've seen you at your worst. it would've been okay. you know I wouldn't leave you for anything. I'm always here by your side." I sigh.
"I know. I just didn't want anyone to see me." she sighs.
"I love you and I'll never leave you."
"I love you too." she smiles and hugs me. I ignore the pain and hug her back. "get some rest. I'll see you later." I nod and watch her leave.

-

after Ellie left, I took a three hour nap. when I woke up, dinner was finished and I'm slowly walking down the stairs.
I sigh and start to eat. once I finish, I start talking to my mom and dad.
"is your foot hurting?" mom asks.
"yeah. walk with me to the car to get your crutches?"
"sure." I nod. I stand up and ignore the pain in my thighs. I sigh and start walking with my mom.

as I walk outside and immediately see all the boys across the street. my mom stays beside me and I can hear my dad and sisters following. I get halfway to the car and start feeling light head. I stop walking and I can feel myself falling.
"CALL 911!" my mom yells. I feel the grass underneath me and my mom touching me. my body eruptd in pain and I groan.

"i-it h-hurts.." my eyes close and I can see darkness.

-

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