Conflicted Heart (Completed)

Seventeen

Zane

I should have known that Robyn was up to no good. I knew that as soon as I met her, she was interested in me just by how she acted. I told her I was interested in someone and I am sure that she used her skills to find out just who I was talking about. I mean we do stalk and find out information about people on our job on a daily basis so I am sure that Robyn had no problem finding out about Yani. That shit isn't right though because honestly Yani isn't Robyn's business. We need to keep this strictly professional, but I can tell that with Robyn that is going to be difficult. It's been almost three weeks to the day since and whenever I see Robyn she throws all these flirtatious hints at me. Sure she's cute, but damn I really want to focus on Yani right now. Speaking of Yani, I really do like her and I know I need to tell her about my job. It's just I haven't even told my mom about my job because I just don't want to get judged. I am sure that Yani won't judge me, but she might look at me different. I need to figure this out, because the longer I wait to tell her, the more impatient Yani will be. Right now it's Friday evening and I am meeting with Robyn as we are still trying to gather information about our current target. I pull up to the warehouse around 8 p.m. and Robyn is already here. I park next to her, and she gets out and I unlock my car doors as she gets in the passenger seat. She gets strapped in and then looks at me. She has on a pair of skinny jeans and this fitted ass shirt with a black leather jacket.

"Hi Zane," Robyn said sweetly.

"What's up?," I said with a casual head nod. I see her bite her bottom lip and I put the car in drive and I drive off.

"I need to talk to you about something," I said.

"Sure what is it?," Robyn asked.

"Why'd you go to see Yani?," I asked bluntly. I see Robyn smirk as she pulls out a blunt. She lights it up and then takes a long puff and then passes it to me. I shake my head and she takes another hit before blowing out smoke.

"Just wanted to know who had your interest," Robyn said casually.

"So you just stalked until you found out where she worked so you could talk with her?"

"Pretty much."

"Why would you do that and what did you say to her?"

"I didn't tell her what you did if that's what you're asking. And I told her that you need someone that understands what you do since our line of work isn't understood by everyone."

"You said that to her? Why would you do that?"

"It's the truth," Robyn said while shrugging her shoulders.

"Robyn I would really appreciate it if you would stay out of my personal life. We work together and I want to keep this professional alright?" Robyn looks over at me and I quickly look at her. She smirks and nods her head.

"Whatever you say Zane," Robyn said while biting her bottom lip.

"....I really like Yani ok. I don't want anything to mess what we have up," I said.

"And what is that? You're in a relationship with her now?"

"No but.....I see that in the future. She's amazing with my daughter and she cares about the both of us. Nia and I haven't had that in a long time," I confessed.

"Alright....so when are you going to tell her about your job? I don't really think she will stay once she finds out what you really do."

"Don't talk like you know shit about her Robyn. But I see you have a problem with running your mouth anyway. That shit could get us in trouble if you're not careful."

"I know Zane damn calm down," Robyn said through a groan. I suck my teeth as I continue driving. I just want to get back home to Nia and Yani. Yani is staying with Nia at my place for the night. I told her if she got tired, she could just pass out in my bed and I wouldn't mind that one bit. Once we reach our destination, Robyn and I see our target. We park a ways back so we can see him, but he can't see us.

"Ready?," I asked Robyn. She nods her head as she sets the blunt down. We both put on a black ski mask over our heads and I pull my hood up over my head and I make sure that Robyn's hair is completely out of sight and that none of her tattoos are showing. I make sure I can't be easily identified either and I open up the glove compartment and I hand Robyn a gun and I take one.

"Let's go," I said. Robyn nods her head and we both quietly get out of the car. The target is walking in front of us and we slowly fall in behind him. I shoot him once in the right leg and he yells out in pain and he falls to the ground. Robyn then shoots him skillfully in his left shoulder.

"Don't torture any more women and you won't have to die. Got it?," I said sternly. The man nods his head quickly while screaming out in pain. Robyn and I run off in the opposite direction back to my car. We both hop in and I speed off making sure no one is following me. I take off my ski mask and Robyn does the same.

"Wow what a rush!," Robyn said excitedly. I can admit you do get an adrenaline rush doing that.

"So what are you doing for the rest of the night?," Robyn asked.

"Going home and relaxing. You?"

"Same....probably going to get high as fuck too," Robyn said while smirking. I laugh a bit as I shake my head.

"All you do is smoke huh?," I asked.

"Not all the time just in my spare time. I love the high." I nod my head in understanding. I know what she is talking about exactly. I used to get high all the time, but I have ceased as of late. It just doesn't have the same effect on my anymore. I don't want to be high anymore anyway; I want to experience life without that. I drive back to the warehouse and I park next to Robyn's car.

"See you next time?," Robyn said.

"Yeah. Have a good night," I said.

"You too Zane." Robyn narrows her eyes at me and then she leans in and quickly kisses my cheek before getting out of the car and closing the door behind her. I put the car in drive and I head home. Once I park, I get out of the car and I head into my apartment complex. I go to my apartment and I unlock the door and I quietly walk in. I close and lock the door behind me and I slip off my shoes and jacket and I set my keys on the kitchen counter. I go upstairs and I go to Nia's bedroom and I see my princess sleeping peacefully. I smile as I walk over to the bed and I place soft kisses on her forehead. I then leave her bedroom closing the door behind me. I go to my bedroom and I see Yani lying across my bed in a beater and yoga pants. Damn she looks good. When she hears the door open, she looks my way and smiles.

"Hey," Yani said while smiling.

"Hey," I said while closing the door behind me. Yani sits up and I walk over to the bed and I lean down and I peck her lips.

"How was it?," Yani asked.

"Just fine," I said.

"Good.....do you want me to stay?"

"Yes I do....I'm going to hop in the shower real quick." Yani nods her head and gets comfortable under the covers. I go into the bathroom and I close the door behind me. I turn on the shower to a warm, almost hot temperature and then I strip naked. I get in the shower and I let the water run down my body. I really feel the need to be honest with Yani tonight. I don't want to hide anymore and it's time. After a 25 minute shower, I turn off the shower and I get out and I dry off and then I wrap the towel around my waist. I open the bathroom door and I walk out to the bedroom. Yani's eyes land on me and I see them roam over my chest and torso. She quickly looks away when she sees me staring back at her.

"Hey turn around so I can get dressed," I said. Yani laughs a bit and turns so her head is in the pillow. Mmm. I don't know why I just pictured me stripping off her bottoms, putting her ass in the air and putting this dick in her. Damn she has me so gone. I remove my towel and I put on boxers, a t-shirt and a pair of basketball shorts. I put my towel and clothes in the laundry hamper and then I brush my teeth quickly. I go back to the bedroom and I lie down next to Yani. She turns on her side to face me and I turn on my side to face her. I study her face and I slowly trace over an exposed tattoo on her left arm.

"What's on your mind Zane?," Yani asked softly. She can read me like a book I swear.

"....I need to be honest with you," I said.

"Ok talk to me."

"Well first of all.....Robyn wants the dick," I said bluntly. Yani just busts out laughing as I shake my head.

"You're serious?," Yani asked.

"Yes I'm serious....she definitely wants me she has made that clear numerous times. Also.....she knew what she was doing when she went to see you. I mentioned you and she wanted to know who had my interest." Yani's eyebrows sink in disappointment.

"Wow really?," Yani asked.

"Yes really. And I know what she said to you but please don't mind her alright?"

"Ok Zane. I knew she liked you she mentioned how fine you were when she came into the shop. She had me feeling some type of way," Yani said while laughing a bit.

"Oh yeah why is that?," I said while resting an arm around Yani's waist.

"Because....you know I like you and I didn't like her talking about you in that way."

"Jealous huh?," I said while smirking.

"Shut up," Yani said slightly embarrassed.

"I'm just teasing.....Yani....I need to be honest with you," I said while looking into Yani's beautiful brown eyes.

"Ok I'm listening Zane," Yani said while staring into my eyes.

"I'll start from the beginning.....Nia's mom Myra.....that woman was the love of my life. We met in high school our freshman year and we literally became inseparable after that. We dated all through high school and when we were 18 that is when we found out we were expecting Nia. We were both terrified because we were so young, but happy at the same time because we were going to have a family. When our princess was born, we could not have been happier. Nia was so perfect and we loved her to death. I got a job while Myra tried the college thing and it worked for us. We were both able to see our little girl as much as we wanted to with our schedules.....I'll never forget the night I found out that Myra was murdered. I was waiting for her to come home from school one night and I just.....I felt something wasn't right. I think Nia felt it too because she would not fall asleep for anything that night. I just remember my baby girl screaming her lungs out whenever I tried to lie her down in her bed. She wouldn't let go of me, so I let her lay with me until Myra came home. Well....she never came home. I didn't sleep that night. The next morning I get a call......saying they found her body dumped not too far from the campus........she was brutally raped and then murdered and then thrown away like trash...," I said while getting choked up towards the end. I close my eyes and I hear Yani gasp in sorrow.

"Oh my gosh Zane. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry you lost the woman you loved like that. That's terrible," Yani said in a sympathetic tone. She moves closer to me and wraps her arms around me.

"I always blamed myself for what happened. I would usually drop her off and pick her up, but I couldn't that day because of a work conflict," I confessed.

"You can't blame yourself for that Zane. You can only blame the evil person that did that to her," Yani said.

"I understand that now.....but.....after that happened, I just felt the need to help people. I feel like I have to help stop the evil that goes on in this world," I said lowly. Yani pulls back a bit and stares at me. A single tear fell down my left cheek and she quickly wiped it away.

"What do you mean Zane?," Yani asked curiously.

"Well my job....basically what I do is I help people. I tend to hits that people have put on bad people," I said honestly. Yani's eyes widen in shock.

"Zane....you kill people?," Yani asked in shock and a bit of fear.

"No Yani. No I do not kill people I promise you that. I have never killed a single one of my targets. What I do is I inflict pain on people that may rob, or rape woman or anything like that. I just put fear in you so you will stop the evil that you are doing." Yani just stares at me and takes a deep breath.

"....Wow....that's very different Zane. So if like a man drugs woman and rapes them, you're the one that's called to put an end to it so to speak?," Yani questioned.

"Exactly....I know it's not the best job in the world, but I am helping people. At least in my mind I think I am," I said while sighing.

"You definitely are. Wow.....so you're like a vigilante but in a good way huh?," Yani said while smiling a bit. I just stare at her in a bit of shock. I was not expecting such a good reaction. I would have told her sooner if I knew she would react like this. Wow.

"Yeah you could say that," I said.

"Wow....that's very interesting Zane.....but isn't it somewhat dangerous?," Yani asked.

"It can be, but I know what I'm doing. I've never been harmed or caught for anything that I have done."

"Wow.....you have a unique job Zane, but....it doesn't change how I feel about you."

"That means so much to hear you say that Yani it truly does.....and since we're being honest.....I just want you to know that you were one of my hits." Yani's eyebrows rise in shock.

"Wh-what?," Yani asked shakily.

"In the file we get for every target, it was said that you date men for their money and then steal it all when you leave and also that you were abusive," I said honestly. Yani is stunned right now.

"What? Who.....huh? I can't believe that. Oh my gosh," Yani said while shaking her head.

"I knew it wasn't true. I still had to do my research but I am sure that your ex did that to get back at you."

"That sneaky low down son of a bitch. I can't believe him! He is the one that abused me and took my money putting me in debt. I can't believe that!"

"Don't worry about it Yani. You're good now. We threw the case out so you'll be fine." Yani nods her head but I can tell she is still in shock.

"So....while you were getting to know me, you also were investigating a hit on me?," Yani asked.

"Yes.....crazy huh?," I said.

"Yeah....talk about conflict of interest." I laugh a bit and I pull Yani close to me. She smiles softly and I kiss her forehead.

"Zane I really appreciate you being honest with me. I'm glad that you feel like you can trust me. Again I'm sorry about your loss. Losing Myra like that must have been so hard to deal with. How did Nia take it?"

"When Myra died I told Nia that mommy wouldn't be coming home and she cried, but I'm not sure if she really understood back then. Now Nia will sometimes ask to see pictures of Myra or have me tell her stories because she doesn't remember much. Myra loved Nia though more than herself and I make sure Nia knows that if nothing else."

"Right I understand." I look at Yani and I lean in and gently kiss her nose.

"....I don't want anything to change between us Yani," I said with my forehead against hers.

"I won't let it if you promise to do the same," Yani said.

"I promise." Yani smiles and kisses my lips and rests her head on my chest as I hold her close to me. That went very well considering the circumstances. For Yani to accept me regardless of my job, makes me like her that much more. I know I'm falling for her and although that terrifies me, I can't wait to see what the future has for us.