Conflicted Heart (Completed)

Fourteen

Yani

This is ridiculous. I barely slept last night. I was too hot from that encounter with Zane at his place last night. I feel like Nina from Love Jones, y'all know when Darius was sleeping downstairs at her place while she was upstairs and they both were just so sexually aggravated. That is how I felt all last night. Ugh. Usually I have better control, but with Zane's fine ass...I don't have any. I swear I just wanted to be a ho just once and fuck on the first date, but I don't want to rush that either. He has definitely done something to me though. All we did was kiss! I mean there was a bit of touching, but we mostly kissed and he's got me feeling like this? Makes no sense. I could barely keep my own hands off of myself last night, even though I wished they were Zane's. I need some new damn batteries because the one in my vibrator died....again! I sit up in the bed and I sigh. I think about the dinner Zane and I had and I smile a bit. We truly did have a nice time. I can tell something is holding him back from opening up completely to me. I am not sure what it is, but I want to find out. I wonder what he's doing today? I would love to see him and Nia today. I missed Nia last night. That's my boo. I love that little girl I truly do. She's amazing. I throw the covers off of me and I get out of the bed and I go into the bathroom. Well I don't look too tired. I brush my teeth and then I take a quick shower. I go back out to my bedroom with just a towel around my body. Oh how I wish Zane was here to rip this towel off of me and have his way with me. I don't know why he makes me feel like this. I've never wanted to jump a man's bones so soon. He's mysterious to me which is sexy. I can't explain it. I put on panties, bra and shorts and a t-shirt. I check my phone and Kiara says she will be over this morning, just to talk. She wants to know all about my date last night. I put my hair in a loose bun and I go to the kitchen. I fix a bagel and a bowl of grapes and I go into the family room. I turn on the television and I sit down and I eat my breakfast. Once I am done eating, I grab my phone from the bedroom. I look and I see a message from Zane and I can't help but smile! It reads: Hey Yani. Had a great time last night. Can I see you again today? Nia would like to see you too. Let me know. I bite my bottom lip as I smile and respond with: I had a great time too Zane. I would love to see you and Nia today. Should be free after 1. I set my phone down as I smile. I can't get this smile off of my face right now! I sit back on the couch and 15 minutes later, I hear a knock on my door. I go to the door and I look through the peephole and I see Kiara. I smile and I open the door and we hug each other tightly. 

"Hey boo," Kiara said.

"Hey Kiara," I said. She walks in and I close and lock the door behind her. We walk into the living room and we sit on the couch next to each other.

"So spill all the details about last night," Kiara said.

"Oh Kiara it was amazing. We had a really nice time. He took me to this upscale Italian restaurant. We are slowly getting to know each other. He's really sweet actually. He bought me a Valentine's card and gift and I bought him one," I said.

"Awww look at you! That's your man now," Kiara said while laughing.

"Stop no he's not. We're just in that beginning stage you know trying to learn about each other."

"I know....anything happen after dinner? Did you bust the pussy open?" I slap Kiara's arm hard as she laughs.

"No I didn't.....but I surely did want to," I confessed.

"Are you serious?," Kiara asked.

"Yes.....so we were in his kitchen and we were kissing and I ended up on the counter. He was kissing my neck.....and I just wanted to fuck him on the spot I swear. He does something to me. I get butterflies every time he looks at me so when he touched me....my entire body filled with heat and chills. I don't know why he had that effect on me but I could barely sleep because my body was still on fire from his touch and lips," I said. Kiara stares at me blankly and I sigh. She must think I'm crazy.

"Damnnnnn it was like that?! Wow!," Kiara exclaimed. I laugh a bit and I shake my head.

"Now you know that experience doesn't just happen with a random someone. That means Zane is special. He brings out passion in you that no one else can," Kiara said.

"I guess you're right....there's still a lot I don't know about him though. He's seems to be very private," I said.

"And that's just fine. Once he feels more comfortable with you, he will open up to you don't worry about that." I nod my head and I smile a bit.

"I'm so happy for you though Yani. You deserve to be happy. I know you haven't had the best luck in love, but I feel like all that is going to change very soon." I smile and I hug Kiara tight and she kisses my cheek. Kiara had a very good Valentine's day too. She said she was up under her boo most of the night. Freaks I tell you! Shit I wish I was up under Zane all night too! Or on top or to the side, hell he could have me however he wants me. I need to chill. I don't want to come off too strong especially not too strong sexually. I don't need Zane thinking I'm fast because I swear I'm not. Ok maybe with him I am, but I can take it down a few notches. Anyway Kiara and I talk until about 12 and then she leaves. I tell Zane that I am available to see him and Nia and he invites me over to his apartment. I really enjoy spending quality time with Zane and Nia. I go into my bedroom and I put on a loose sweatshirt, black leggings  and a pair of black combat boots. I wear my hair out in its large afro state. I do a bit of makeup and then I grab my purse and keys and I head out to Zane's apartment. I go inside and up to his apartment and I knock on the door. Zane with Nia by his side answer the door quickly.

"Yani!," Nia exclaimed. Nia crashes into me and hugs me waist tightly. I laugh and I pick her up and I plant kisses on both of her cheeks as she giggles softly.

"Hi sweetheart. You feeling better today?," I said while smirking.

"I was never really sick I just wanted you and daddy to be alone," Nia whispered in my left ear. I laugh and I kiss her nose and she kisses my cheek and then I set her down. I then look at . Damn he is fine!

"Hey Zane," I said.

"Hey Yani," Zane said. He moves closer to me and his nice smelling cologne takes over my nostrils. He slowly opens his arms and I smile and move into his arms and he wraps them around me and we share an embrace. I could stay in his arms forever. I kiss his cheek as we pull out of the embrace.

"So what are you two up to today?," I asked while taking off my boots.

"It's hair day. I have to wash my baby girl's hair," Zane said while smiling a bit and looking down at Nia. Nia looks up at Zane and smiles and Zane puckers his lips. Nia reaches up to Zane and Zane smiles and picks her up and Nia pecks Zane's lips. Damn their relationship is adorable.

"You two are so cute together....but how about I do Nia's hair? I would like that," I offered. I swear if I wasn't a tattoo artist, I would be a hair stylist. I love to style hair.

"Yani are you sure?," Zane asked.

"Of course I'm sure....would you like that Nia?," I asked. Nia nods her head happily and Zane shrugs his shoulders while nodding his head.

"Ok it's fine with me. Let me get you everything you will need," Zane said. Zane kisses Nia's cheek and sets her down and goes upstairs.

"Yani did you have fun with daddy last night?," Nia asked.

"Yes I did. Me and your daddy had a good time," I said.

"I think you should be daddy's girlfriend," Nia said sweetly.

"Oh you think so?," I said while laughing a bit.

"Yes I do. I told daddy that too and I thought he was crazy....you like daddy don't you?"

"Yes....I do like your daddy."

"He likes you too I know it." I can't help but to smile at the thought. A few minutes later, Zane comes downstairs with everything to wash Nia's hair. I place a towel near the edge of the sink and I pick Nia up and I lay her across the counter. I turn the water to a lukewarm temperature and I let the water fall through Nia's head full of hair. Zane sits at the kitchen counter and I can feel him watching me. I don't mind him watching me one bit. Nia and I talk while I wash her hair. She is just the sweetest little girl ever. Once her hair is washed and conditioned, I sit her up and I wrap the towel around her head. I pick her up and I set her down. She grabs my hand and I look down at her and I smile. She leads me to the family room and I sit on the couch while she sits in a small chair in front of me. Zane cleans up in the kitchen and then sits next to me on the couch.

"Baby girl how do you want your hair today?," Zane asked.

"Mmm it doesn't matter. Yani can surprise me," Nia said.

"Ok....well...do you like twists? I can do that so then you won't have to do your hair for a little while and I can show your daddy some styles for them too," I said.

"Oh that sounds great!," Nia said. I smile and I kiss her cheek and I take the towel off of her head and I set it aside. I section her hair into eight sections and I detangle each section with leave in conditioner and a wide tooth comb.

"You're pretty good at this," Zane noticed.

"Thanks. Hair has always been a hobby of mine," I said. Zane nods his head and turns on the television to a program all of us can watch. I twist Nia's hair in medium sized twist. Once I am done, I grab a mirror and I show her and she gasps in shock.

"Oh wow I love them!!," Nia said. Nia whips her hair and Zane and I laugh a bit.

"Thank you so much Yani!," Nia exclaimed. Nia hugs me tightly and I hug her back while rubbing her back.

"I appreciate this Yani thank you. It will make our mornings a lot easier," Zane said.

"It's no problem at all Zane," I said while smiling. Zane narrows his eyes at me and I feel those chills again. He looks do damn sexy when he does that. I clean up the area and Nia yawns loudly.

"Is your nap time baby girl?," Zane asked.

"Yeah I'm tired daddy," Nia said while rubbing her left eye.

"You can take a nap baby girl," Zane said.

"Ok daddy....Yani will you be here when I wake up?," Nia asked. I look at Zane and he nods his head and I look at Nia.

"I'll be here princess," I said. Nia smiles and hugs me and kisses my cheek. I wrap her hair in a satin scarf and then she kisses Zane's lips and runs off upstairs. I turn my head to look at Zane and before I even know it, Zane has his lips pressed against mine. I close my eyes in pleasure as I hold in a moan. I turn towards him and he grabs my waist and pulls me into his lap. His hands roam up and down my back as our kiss turns more passionate. Zane opens his mouth and I slide my tongue in and I hear him grunt lowly. I explore his mouth with my tongue as his tongue does the same in my mouth. The movements of Zane's juicy tongue send heat right between my legs. I rest my hands on the back of Zane's head as we kiss deeply. I feel him adjust underneath me a bit and I feel something poking me. It's not a small something either! Damn. After maybe 5 minutes, Zane pulls me away from him. We stare at each other as we try to catch our breath.

"Damn," Zane said while shaking his head and running his left hand over his face.

"What is it?," I asked.

"You," Zane said while staring at me intensely.

"What about me?," I asked softly.

"I don't know what the hell you're doing to me," Zane said while resting his head back and sighing heavily.

"What do you mean Zane?"

"Every time you kiss me.....hell every time you look at me I just get this feeling I have never felt before. I don't know to handle that shit. I don't know what you want from me Yani but I don't do relationships," Zane said honestly.

"Why is that?," I inquired.

"I just don't."

"Zane...you just said yourself that when we kiss you feel something you have never felt before. I feel the same way when I kiss you. So instead of ignoring that, let's just take those feelings where they take us." Zane studies me for a bit before shaking his head. He rests his hands on my waist and pulls me out of my lap so I am sitting next to him.

"Are you thirsty? Can I get you anything?," Zane said while standing up and walking into the kitchen. I sigh and I stand up and I walk into the kitchen. Zane looks at me and I move closer to him. He backs up and ends up against the counter. I rest my hands on the counter to sort of block him in and I look up at him.

"Zane...I don't know if you've been hurt or by who, but.....I won't hurt you. If you open up to me, I won't judge you. You can trust me I mean that," I said honestly. Zane looks at me blankly and then sighs.

"Yani....I really don't know what it is we're doing," Zane said wearily.

"Why do we need to put a title on what we're doing Zane? Why can't we just see where this path takes us?" Zane nods his head slowly and I rest my hands on his waist. I stand on my toes and I peck his lips and then I hug him gently. Zane seems like he wants something to develop between us, but I know something is holding me back. I'm not sure what is holding him back, but I do plan to find out.