Healing

Australia

10th January 2018,

From that incident I was hurt even more, nobody believed me. From that day I was grounded, starved and locked in one room. Nobody even cares if I am alive or dead. They were behaving like I didn't even exist, and no longer a part of a family. Food became rare for me, I could feel myself growing, not just physically but emotionally. I was isolated in between these 4 walls, just feeling nothing but a suffocation.

It all happened just because of mirae, she purposely did all this. Mirae threatened her mother that if everyone gets to know about her truth, they will hate her and will look at her with hatred eyes and call her as a criminal. She doesn't want that so she threatened her mother by cutting her wrist, her mother became scared and blamed me for the accident. she makes every person believe that I was the culprit, even she paid them for blaming me. How can someone be this cruel.

18th March 2018,

I started going back to college, hoping to find some sense of normalcy, but it felt anything but normal. Everywhere I went, I could feel people's eyes on me, filled with judgment and suspicion. Whispers trailed behind me in the hallways, hushed conversations abruptly stopped whenever I passed by.

It didn't feel good. I was feeling like, I should die. I myself feel like a culprit even though I didn't do anything. People bully me, mistreat me, calling me a criminal just because of her. I don't want to stay here, i want to go far away from this place, this city and this country where no one recognises me. I am tired of leaving like this.

4th July 2018,

Today I gathered up the courage to approach my dad and request something I had been thinking about for a while now-transferring to a different university. I explained how things were getting worse, how i could no longer cope up with the looks and whispers.

I told him I want to start fresh somewhere away from this place where I could focus on my studies, and a chance to be seen who truly I am and not the person everyone assumed me to be.

He listened everything carefully and quietly, i hoped he would understand. A part of me feared he might refuse, but another part clung to the hope that he would agree for this.

And to my surprise he agreed. ,

Han seo : maybe a fresh start is what you need.

He said quietly, his voice was filled with a mix of understanding. For the first time in a long while, he saw me not just as a mistake but me.

I thanked him and literally cried for giving me another chance, to start a new life. It felt like the 1st step towards healing, leaving all these messes behind, starting a new life and experiencing new things.

1st January 2019,

Today for the 1st time I felt truly happy. After 5 long painful months, I finally left that house, that family and all the painful memories. It was like a heavy weight had been lifted off my shoulders and I could breath freely.

I knew there was a long road ahead, and healing wouldn't happen overnight. But I was away from the pain, the judgment. Today was the start of something new something fresh which I desperately needed. And at this moment I felt stronger, lighter and ready to begin again.

My dad arranged everything and got me admitted to a university in Australia. It felt a little weird moving to an entirely different country.

As the plane took off I felt a strange kind of fear and excitement. I was finally leaving behind the shadows of my past and stepping into a world where no one knew me, where I can heal myself and focus on my dreams. Australia felt like a new beginning and I am ready to embrace it.

4th January 2019,

After 3 days my university started. The university was breathtaking with a mix of new glass buildings and older brick ones. Paths wound through tall trees and ponds adding a peaceful vibe. Everywhere I looked, students from all over the world were gathered in groups, chatting or studying under trees.

The library was huge, with big windows, creating quiet and cozy spaces to study. There was even a balcony from where you could see the ocean from the distance. Overall the university felt friendly and welcoming a perfect place to start fresh.

As I glanced at the time, it was 9:55 that means only 5 min left before my class started. I grabbed my things and ran towards the lecture hall which is on the either side of the campus.

I pushed through the crowd of students, my mind, focused on getting there as quickly as possible. But to my bad I bumped onto someone and we both fell. I was continuously apologizing to him and he was helping me in collecting my books which were scattered, "ah I am sorry"

He : it's okay.

He said with a reassuring smile. His voice was kind and unbothered by the accident.
As we done by collecting our things he said,

He : It seems you are new here, I am seeing you for the first time.

"Yeah today is my 1st day"

He : All the best for your new beginning. By the way I am "Lee Sunghoon".
Nice to meet you.

"Jung Yoonah"

I said, he smiled at me and left for his class.

That's how I met him....