"I Loved You First"-Keisho

Chapter 12- Wasted chances

Hinahaplos-haplos oo ang bibig ko habang nasa harap ako ng salamin. Hindi ko parin ako makapaniwala sa nangyare.

*Flashback*

As Kesh's kiss deepened, everything around us faded away. His hands moved to my waist, sending shivers down my spine. I felt a heat between us that I couldn’t ignore.

Then, Kesh's fingers brushed against my breasts, and I gasped at the feeling. His touch was gentle yet firm, awakening something inside me. I leaned into him, wanting more of his warmth.

"Um, Kesh." I moaned.

He kissed my neck softly, trailing kisses that made me ache for him. His hands explored my body, tracing my curves and making me breathe faster. I felt alive in a way I had never felt before.

He gasped, "Kel."

Kesh’s hands moved lower, teasing me and igniting every part of me. Each touch sent waves of pleasure through me, building up an intense feeling that left me breathless.

Finally, as he continued to kiss and touch me, I felt a rush of pleasure that took over. It was my first orgasm, crashing over me like a wave. I cried out softly, completely lost in the moment.

"I'm sorry,Kel,this is all for now." He kissed my forehead and then closed his eyes.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

Nagising na akong wala na si Kesh sa tabi ko. Magkayakap kami buong magdamag,at ngayon wala ni anino niya ang nakikuta ko sa loob ng aking condo.

Sinabunutan ko ang sarili "wala ka nang tinirang kahihiyan sa sarili mo Kelly."
Naluluhang sambit ko.

*tleng*

Inayos ko ang sarili ko para icheck kung sino ang nag door bell.

"Rica."

Bumungad si Fica sa aking ointo na may dalang plastic bag.

"Ano yan?"

Niyaya ko siya papasok at muling sinara ang pintuan.

"Pagkain,ipinadala para sayo." Kumunot ang noo ko.

"Sino?"

"Si Kesh." Taas kilay niyang sambit na may kaunting ngisi.

Tssskkk...pagkatapos niya akong manyakin kagabi,padadalhan niya ako ng ganito?

Isang linggo na ang nakalipas at hindi ko madalas makausap si Kesh. Iniiwasan ko talaga siya,pero propesiyonal naman ako sa trabaho namin.

Nahalata ko ang pag-iiba ng mga mata niya kapag tintitigan ako. Naging mas delikado ang kanyang mga mata. Kapag minsan,napapatingin ako sa kanya ay nakikita ko ang madalas niyang oagtitig sa dibdib ko at sa matambok kong pwet. Fuck you,asshole.

Pagkatapos ng isang scene namin ay nagpasya akong pumunta sa CR para umihi,sasabig na ang pantog ko kanina pa.

"Salamat naman." I released a deep sigh pagkatapos kong lumabas ng cr pero nagulat nalang ako nang babalik na sana ako sa set ay may humigit sa kamay ko at dinala ako sa likod kung saan may matatangkad na halaman.

"Kesh?" Pinanliitan ko siya ng mata.
"Bitawan mo nga ako,ano kaba."

Bigla itong yumakap sa akin. Nakita ko ang mallam niyang titig. Magbabadya ng kapahamakn,ano mang oras pwede na naman niya akong tukain.

"Kesh,please stop this nonsense kung ayaw mong masira tayong dalawa." Kalmado kong sambit.

Binitawan niya ang kamay ko, "pero bakit hindi ka tumanggi?"

Aba,kasalanan ko pa?

"Pwes ngayon natauhan na ako Kesh, hindi na kaya ng konsensiya ko ang mga ginagawa mo." Banat ko pa.

"No, I've seen it in your eyes." Full of hope,he said that.

No,it was useless Kesh. You can give me your boday,pero hindi ang puso mo.

Iniwan ko siyang puno ng frustrations at pag-aalinlangan.

I looked back at him and saw the confusion on his face, which made my heart ache. But I knew this was for the best. Our friendship was too important to risk for something uncertain.

'I can’t keep hoping for something that might never happen,' I thought, accepting that my feelings might not be returned.

With every step, I felt lighter but still sad. Letting go of those feelings was hard, but I knew it was necessary. I wanted to focus on the friendship we had, the laughter, the support, and the connection that meant so much to me.

END OF CHAPTER 12

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